This is me and this is my life

Happy Chinese New Year People!

2010-02-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

Ok time for the usual things. I wish you all a 'hu nian xing da yun' , ' wan shi ru yi' , 'shi shi xun xin', ' jia li tuan tuan yuan yuan' ... etc.

It's my weapon for CNY to get more ang baos. Well this year CNY isn't going really well. Both my Ah Mas (my mum's side and my father's side) unluckily got into accidents. Time all spent on taking care of them and running around.

Hope they get well soon to see my graduate from university... =( I wanted to let my ah ma to see my with my square hat and take picture with her. It's like a dream for her to excel to university.

Well set aside that, i bought quite a lot of chio things for CNY. Like my wallet. Gosh it is like so cool. XD and loads of clothes for school. Bought a new canvas for school. Spend a total of 300 bucks + to buy all i need not a want.

Well i tried to hunt for the cheapest and nicest and best quality i can find. I'm not that rich as you think of.

I don't really have a lot to blog about.. Suddenly a mind of blank now. Tomorrow will start a new week of school and doing studio project to get my things done.

Now i shall just list down what i should finish by this week.

1) Modelling of the sphinx for SPimps

2) Char Animation Due tmr 9am - bball , jump, walk, expression

3) UV of the Sphinx after modelling

4) Prepares to do illustrations for portfolio

5) Prepares more demoreel to be done ( optional)

That's it i guess.. if i have more perhaps i add more. i think.

off to works and i wish well of my 2 grandmas well. =(

Grandma(s) get well soon!!

Finished my work =)

2010-02-08T03:24:00.002+08:00

Just finished editing my story script. Feel a little bit of accomplishment, even after Ms. Eva ranting about my English and stuff and editing my script like an English compositions. Which i normally get like 16 or sometimes luckily 17 out of 30.

Well Since i'm talking about my English, i just want to be so proud of my 'O' Levels grade for English.

I got a nice B3 for English.

Not an A2 or an A1 or even Distinction. Just a B3 makes me like fly around the whole world. Well, i came from a pure chinese speaking or rather a lot of dialect such as TeoChew and Hokkien in it. Well, i'm a total newbie on dialect( i think its wrong spelling, well heck).

Why am i so happy for an B3?

Because i'm ALWAYS a c6,c5 student throughout my life. Even my primary school- Okay i got an band 3 for English.

Well, i always passed until that 'O' levels prelims, i got an nice freaking E8. yay i failed. and really badly. Every single teacher was discussing the issue with me that i maybe retaining just because of a single subject called English.

It's a torture to really cramped good English talking, good grammer, good subject verb agreement, good phrase, no fragments of meaning, no run-ons etc. and the list goes on. I took like a lot of pride pills to reduce my pride and ask my friends for help on English, ask them on how i wrote my Essay, asked my depressing teacher to kindly mark my Extra essays so i can improve Within 2 months.

I worked like triple duple hard, memorized paragraphs by paragraphs of good essays and tried applying, manipulating it to fit the essay and so on.

I hate teachers who looked down on me. There's one teacher, the English head of department, Mr. Duno what. I forgot his name. A teacher who is seem insignificant to me. He said a sentence that i felt like punching him in the face.

" This school every year have some retains. So we do not mind adding this few in that group. "

It's a total kill man. It's like saying, you failed in english equals to failing everything, fail in life, fail in character, fail in everything basically. You should really see how he looked like. The face, the expression, at that moment i felt like shouting, ranting all the vulgarities i ever knew on his face and pushed him on the floor.

If he is that great or so? I was thinking at that point of time. How i wish he is might as well off dead.

I was working hard before he said that and i worked more hard to prove i'm not useless or failure as he looked at me. Fuck you Mr Ass. I remember his face clearly, but not his name. But my skills now still unable to draw what my brain is thinking, or else i will really draw and show how cocky he was at that time.

Well, i really appreciate my English teacher though. Mdm Prema. Who was there teaching patiently to grind some really basics things into our brain. Really, Basics. I didn't really know what the fuck is Subject Verb Agreement, what things are contained in a noun, what exactly is a fragmentation, future tense of every single word, any bombastic words that can describe or rather - Show Not Tell, until i'm sec 2?

Damn i felt like a loser at that time. Hah. Well, my English have improved and it will improve even more as i grow up. Perhaps at a slow pace but definitely be able to articulate well and write well.

And also, draw well. I aim to be a person who can really draw.

Well, i didn't have a lot of things to express lately. Unless you want me to rant more about my work. It kinda hmm a bit too long to write. I shall End here and go for a rest.

Nites Peeps - or rather

Morning Peeps~ =D

I love sleep

2010-02-02T17:51:00.002+08:00

Man, i really like sleeping so much. -.-lll

Perhaps it's because that i have been losing a lot of sleep due to dmd. But i always recover them in like weekends. Argh. So many stuff to do in a so little time. Student's life. Why can't they design it in a way that we learn 100X more than we rush things out and learn little? How i wish. Maybe how everyone wish that will happen.

Imagine, 8am to 6pm full day class of your class - it's tiring - But after 6pm, you get home to rest, no homework, no overnights. How is it? Sounds interesting or sounds favorable?

How you wish. Perhaps there is 8am to 6pm classes, but there's like 1 whole stack of homework left for you to do before you go sleep, perhaps no sleep at all.

Is it my time management is so poor or just simply i like to procrastinate.

This is so depressing and disappointing. I should be chiong work when i said, Raymond tommorrow you should start working form 8am to 6pm to finish the work. But i end up sleeping all the way. Damns.

Well i find out, dreaming in a over-sleep mode is intriguing. It goes on so many stage. Every an hour or half-hour, you wake up and sleep again, you will get like 2 stages to go to. To continue your previous dream or start a new one over again depends on what are you thinking at that point of time.

Perhaps, it's a tool to run away from reality. Wanting to create a world that no one can enter except you.

Isn't it like fantastic, you will feel like you are flying in your dream or playing a fighting game or doing something that you will never do in your dream. Even nightmares occurs at the point when you are doing something that you will never do.

I really need to be motivated to do work. To do more and more work and finish the work on time. I seriously do not get motivated to do any maya works.

Maybe I do not have any inspiration on it? Perhaps just keep doing it, you bound to have a lot good ideas pen-en down. But this isnt drawing or thinking of concepts or story. It's like rendering and lighting.

Technical like putting the mood right and have outstanding works that people will view you more.

motivation...........

I want to eat sleep play

2010-01-31T23:19:00.002+08:00

Ah~ Life is miserable, suffering, sucks, depressing, sad, sleep-deprived, expressionless, motionless and the list of negative things go on and on.

I have been procrastinating - again. It's like a daily routine for me to procrastinate on a weekend, trying to squeeze precious time away for a good sleep and just day dream.

I need a rest perhaps? Been working hard for 5 days in a week and then on a saturday, the time just go slowly and i start my procrastination once again. Someone push me please or make the school open on weekends so i can go over to school and force myself to work instead of sleeping the whole day and wasting the whole day away. Why others are able to rest and work at the same time and yet i am there sleeping whole day.

Ah. What is done is done. Left is all the sleep-deprived days when the deadlines draws near. Man someone like enlighten me how to do this and that please. I'm kinda sick and tired already. I want to start SP4 and . Year 3 as soon as possible so that i can do my own portfolio, my own stuff my own identity for others to see.

Man. Raymond, you need to be more motivated, more hardworking!!

Lately or rather this morning, i watched a movie called Parika. A film by Satoshi Kon. Well, there's a few other films by him but as a noob as i were, i do not know of these master works.

Parika is a great anime film. It's gory and yet beautiful and smooth at the same time. The animation, oh, how long before i reach that stage.

I'm starting to socialise more and more i guess through facebook, one by one i think. Build up my contacts and then later make close friends. I was hoping to get some really close friends in poly. Cause lately i heard from one my friend saying, one good thing about poly is, there is no such thing of immaturity.

Perhaps there are more or less some dumb and stupid childish people. But perhaps most of them have a aim in their mind and thus, they have a mind unlikely to be childish. Come in to a poly to study, to have fun and to mature to a stage whereby to prepare to work and slog for the rest of life then retire.

Hah~

Week 16 and week 17 is a hell week with rendering and texturing due, Story due, drawing due, and animation due.

Help is seriously needed.

or perhaps

Time is seriously needed.

Ah.... Sadly, that's all i can say for it. Work hard ba~ the same thing i told myself when i'm secondary school. Affected by parents that all lies on me only to achieve a dream that they can never achieve- to be successful in life.

Results is not a factor for me to live, but instead I am the factor for Results to be created.

All this words are just a mask to hide away how i am so particular about results. It's just a happy mask over a sad mask. It's just that simple.

Perhaps i have a thousand masks to choose from but still my most underlying naked face is so obvious.

Again...

~back to work.

Finally it's over - Or not

2010-01-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

Man, CoPit Presentation finished. Everything is done, a lot of shit is done and error has pop up and solved. Luckily.

Well, for some reasons, i feel a little guilty. I do not know why. I have been thinking after the whole presentation, that what grade should I deserved at the end of copit? Perhaps not an A. But a B perhaps? I didn't do a lot of heavy work i received. My teamates don't trust me on some work that they think I will not do as a better job than them. Man. How i wish i can be better in painting, drawing and time management.

Ah, this thing had been haunting me for days. Over GRADES again. Why am i so particular on grades? Is it because 10 years of my education, what i fight for and work hard for ends up to be only a grade? What a grade can do to me? Other than misery and depression there's nothing else.

Someone Enlighten Me Please.

Ah~ A lot of 3D 3D work to do and i haven even finished anything. Time management time management!!! I'm going to work 10x hard. I'm working hard now and i will work hard even more.

To improve my drawing skills and painting skills.

I want to be a master in drawing that i can transfer my thoughts to a drawing, instead of reference after reference.

Admiration do not work. Work hard. Even without talent i'm going to do as good as them as good as in an industry expects. I need fame, i need skills, i need more more motivation and passion.

I don't really have much stuff to like think of. Perhaps i need to be more sociable, talk to people more and make some good friends that i will have some help in the future. Stop being so passive.

Ah, i really really need a lot of push from myself, not from others. Dependant on teachers is not going to work well. Individual pushing is the best.

Soon i will have an art blog up. And at that point of time, is for me to socialise with the whole world that how i improve and how i can do things and prove that i can really draw and illustrate and do what an quality that people will say 'wa' on.

I will make sure that will happen to me. That's my aim, my dream.

To be an artist for a game and create cool stuff and receive and sufficient amount for a family to be created.

I need to do more work to put in my portfolio. It's not enough and not good enough.

Ok gtg to do some 3D. Expect me to be flying cause i will not fall easily.

Freaking tired..

2010-01-27T21:31:00.002+08:00

Timelessly, i have been like running out time and always resort of nights of no sleep making my whole body a serious unhealthy one. All problems are popping up now. Always been tired and brain is going to break down anytime and so on. Man i really can't take sooner if i continue like this.

But still i continue like as if i'm a drug addict or perhaps a overnight addict. I'm not sure but i do think that i'm really a very nocturnal person. Unable to work in the afternoon/morning. Been the most active in the night time trying to rush out the stuff that is due tomorrow.

I have a date due tomorrow and here i am typing out all my complains once again.

Lately, i had a serious issue of people saying out how they feel or what in the status updates. Especially on those like " my heart is being stabbed" or "i feel so sad that i want to die" kind of sad posts.

It's like you are shouting to all your friends that you want attention and comment about you. When they comment you, you say "it's okay now, im feeling better already" while you posted like 5 previous status talking about how sad you are and how depressed you are and cause no one posted and you continue posting all those status hoping for some attention.

Man get a life please. Go study hard and earn money for your family. God damn it. LOVE does not feed you and MISERY from LOVE does not give you food and furthermore happiness. Fucking childish and cannot think properly.

Think on the side whereby, why this why that. What's the point of think why and there is no one out there giving you this attention or even bother to reply your freaking emo status? Ranting out in facebook is a total bullshit.

Facebook is for you to catch up with your friends and find out whats happening to them lately and keep in touch with them. IT'S A SOCIAL WEBSITE NOT A PLACE FOR YOU TO EMO.

Man get a life. Damn it. I can't tell that straight to that person face because my words are full of sharp edges. I think i will be able to kill her straight away. DAMNS.

I hate dumb girls who always think so much.

Dumb girls with innocent thinking still okay, at least they are pure like also blur blur won't think like will he be thinking about me? Will he be going to sms me soon? Damns

You can be sad and u post like a sad status updates and let someone to concern about you. But, you can't be sad for SO MANY DAYS. constantly posting and posting. Oh damns. Felt like deleting that person so i can like stop seeing all those ugly posts.

Really can't help it by ranting people stuff. I really can't stand it.

Ah~ okay this is the end. Well i better stop now, and complain to a real person instead, i will be able to feel better.

Ok 3D time.

Working hard

2010-01-24T17:23:00.002+08:00

Been Working really hard for drawing i guess.. Trying my best to have as many sketches as possible to actually look good.

Personally, i think i really improved a lot compared from where i started out as a pure beginner. Can't even draw a straight line across the page well or draw perspective well. Recently, i read a article on a e-magazine which is free.

It Says:

Learn to draw and paint traditionally- there is no short cut. Go to your local life-drawing group. even it you don't have much time - Sketch. You won't reach the top of the mountain (or any place) if you just sit around.

Theres nothing more intelligent than to study about what you want to know. To resort to books, tutorials and above all to the observation of whatever we like and we want to understand; most of the really smart tips can be found in your environment, and nothing works as well as evaluating your environment from a pictorial point of view, asking yourself constantly how could i get this or that color?, how could i draw of that object or person?

Seen through the pentable and the computer, i guess those are smart tips, as well as studying the work of others and try to reproduce whatever we like about of other artist.

Archieving a good job as a an digital artist didn't depend of how expensive is your pentablet or computer, but your own interest for things that surround you and the way you look at them. By the time when you take this to digital expression you don't need only particular knowledge than you'd for any other media, if first you don't learn about color, perspective and composition, the computer won't do anything for you.

There are a lot more master advices that i really got some inspirations from- not only from their works but also from their words of wisdoms.

Experience says it all.

Perhaps after all in the future i will be a teacher, educating students to do fantantics works that i do in the future. One of the greatest dream i guess. Doing what i like everyday and also earning a substantial amount of money to survive and for family.

Ah~ how pretty the life will be.

If everyone can being self-less and being a little more caring and less caring of MONEY MONEY MONEY everyday, perhaps world issues will be solved and global warming will be stopped.

Living in this real world make me feel, its such an polluted world. Perhaps that's why more and more people want to create a world of their own and control them in their free way without money.

Money just hurt anything. It can give you happiness but it's temporary, you get what you want from money but you still lose something in return. Don't you think so?

Perhaps Money for survival is reasonable. If money for satisfactory, isn't making someone hungry for yourself to have more food?

Ah~ not much time for work and here i am blogging for no reasons.

Okay signing off ~

Still long way..

2010-01-23T21:31:00.002+08:00

Been wanting to blog lately.. I don't know why am i like keep want to voice out things and i just can't find a suitable person to voice out to.. In facebook too. The status bar is always wanted to write how i think and how i feel right now.

But somehow..

It just make me think that i'm complaining things again.

Hah~ Perhaps a Blog will make me feel a little better ? Somehow i guess.

Okay, back to what i felt just a few minutes ago. I just bought some artbooks from Ms. Eva and get alot of inspiration from there as usual. It was such a inspirations till that it became sort of a motivation to make me move on to a even higher stage.

An Illustrations do not only Contain only the character itself..

It contains more than that. A feeling, an Expression that you want to express to the one looking at your illustrations. A way to let the Viewer know what you are thinking and feeling.

A background, textures, directions of the eye, colour, compositions... Blah blah

Need a lot of practice to be better. As I am from today, compared to them are such a tiny little pea or even an Ant in the world.

I realized myself liking to draw more females lately. It's such a challenge and the ending results make you want to draw more =D. I not sure why but i guess its ok. Ha~ I planned that after like SP4 i will start to work out for NS and also start a Art Blog, Throwing in all my progress to a higher stage.

What i will put in the Art Blog in a daily basis as possible.

Per Month: A theme which i work on (So i will have like 4 final painted art pieces each month)

Per Week: A Painted Artwork (if time permits more than one to cover up those that is undone)

Daily: Drawing Sketches(A must) + Painting practices of course(As Fast As possible if time permits) + Copy works of the Masters on colours schemes and trying to decifer how he/she paints and also the mood.

Perhaps After SP4 things will start in a slower pace for me to catch up a bit with all the basics and stuff and start to hardwork again. I just don't want to lose.

I kinda is like don't want to lose kind of person. From young, as long as somebody/someone challenged me that he/she get a higher grade than me or someone that i think that i should be scoring better than him/her, I will strive like 10 times than who i am to PROVE that i'm good/better. It's kinda a good motivation way i guess, a positive one. Well i don't like go be an ass that try to psyco them not to do any work or do any underhands making them sick or kill them so i can win. I win with my efforts and hardwork.

Currently, i kinda got a few of my peers that i look up to as an aim for myself to reach. Be it drawing skills, painting skills, MAYA skills or some organising skills that i need to learn. Also be more creative and also most importantly, socialize more.

Speaking of Socializing, I kinda unable to communicate well with my lecturers when he/she comment my work. My brain will go on an ' AGREE ' mode that like I will take in whatever he/she says and nod. Perhaps i think that lecturers say things that is most likely related to the industry i think. I don't hate them, but i prefer them saying the things a little more beginner friendly - Meaning saying it in a way that don't hurt that motivation and way of thinking of their work and also at the same time not always saying the positive things and then giving an fail grade.

Perhaps if I'm the lecturer, i will perhaps accept all kinds of work and firstly ask them a question:

"Did you put a lot of effort on this?"

Student if shake his/her head

"Okay, Come back and see me after you think that you have put in enough effort in this."

If every time a person put efforts in a piece of work and you keep on rejecting it, it kinda demoralize them?

They will think,"This is not correct, then what is a correct one?"

Students are not as experienced as the teachers does. They are not explored in the world before. They do not have a model answer to refer to. Or a Perfect formula to apply to. But why the teachers expect a student to do a certain standard that need a few years to achieve?

"Just do more i guess."

I guess some of my classmates who are good in everything are very smart on not stressing their peers who are aren't as good as them.

They finished the work like 4 days ago before the deadlines but they will not hand in on the day 4 days ago but instead will hand in the day before the deadline at 12am around the same timing as the class people.

It kinda let students like me not stressing myself to do as good as them or stressing myself that they are doing so good work and done 4 days ago and yet i spend so much time and my work is like 1/3 as good as them.

I don't know but i guess i work hard and do my best. My ultimate solutions in everything.

Even i fall down i just stand up, brush away all the dirt and walk with confidence again. Although there will injuries on my legs but it will heal overtime.

Lately, i personally borrowed Ms. Eva's precious Hikaru No Go DVD Special Editions~ AHHHH

Was screaming lately. I can't find any hikaru no go DVD as it is so damn long ago. It is 8 years ago.

Freaking 8 years. Time go really fast i guess.

It was such a good show, excruciating fast building up musics that triggers me saying arghhhh FASTER!!!! I WANT TO KNOW WHAT'S THE ENDINNGGGG!!!!!

Well as usual, it didn't show an ending. It was such a waste, but i will not forget. Its the best competition anime at that point of time i guess. From what i know, competition(growing up being strong then go on competition) like Eyeshield 21, Baseball, prince of tennis.... All those come along after Hikaru no Go comes in like a hit.

AND.....

the artist of hikaru no go and death note IS THE SAMEEE.

No wonder i'm attracted to death note. The controlling of the world and the mind trigger is such a lucrative business.

If you see a fan girl of some games then i'm some fan boy over some mind trigging shows.

I wonder if someone actually read my blog, perhaps leaving it hanging there to my close friends is good i think. (if they actually visit it)

Check out this website.

www.4shared.com

It provides kinda a lot of things for download and there's no virus in it. Its like a free

program sharing all sort of things in the world. from books to movies to songs to games. there is even story books in voice. How cool to LISTEN a storybook instead of READING one when you are travelling.

I got kinda alot of artworks from there. XD

I kinda need a lot things for a new year.

New....

-Shoes

-Clothes

-Pants

-Berms

-Watch

-Wallet

-A no degree plastic glasses

basically anything.

Signing off to do work.

Ranting out..

2010-01-18T22:40:00.002+08:00

Well lately, i got a rush to blog and complaint all i want to in here. I totally have been bottling up a lot of things in my heart trying to find a best solution of all that will magically solve all problems..

But Nothing Seems to Work.

Anyone can give me a Answer please.

I felt myself useless lately. Is it because i do have the capability to do it or i do not spend enough time or rather spend time on other things that is irrelevant?

I will really like to thank Ms.Joan Chia my AVA teacher in secondary school days. Well she really hit some sense to me when she asked everyone how everyone looked at me, how they think about me.

They say "Raymond always like to complaint this and that everytime"

Perhaps i am like that. Because i have none not even my family to complaint to other than my friends who are always with me.

I think sometimes i'm annoying in someway.. Like always complaining a lot of school work that i seem to do everytime i see a new friend or rather a friend that i don't really see often. I usually just want someone to just give some attention perhaps.

Attention Seeker? I guess so..

I Kinda of a very complicated person to REALLY know me inside out. Not even my mom can do that. Inside stories are so much that i want cry out to people and ask for solutions to that.

Perhaps i always get spoon-fed. Ask for it and i get it. Ask it and someone will give me the accurate answer for me. I don't like that. It has become a habit that i will take a few years even to quit it. Damn!

I need a break really.

A BREAK.......

But I CANT HAVE IT.

I admire a lot people lately. I finally understand the feelings of those who try hard to get the standards of the good ones around you. Secondary school, i'm always at the safe zone, the point that i won't get shit happened to me, the point whereby the teachers will have no business with unless special thing happened to me like suddenly my grades drop by 5 grades.

Experience and time explains.

Design really need some good experience good groundings good basics before you even start to talk about thinking process or concepts. Perhaps you are able to think of concepts.. But hello, you have totally no idea how to draw it dude. Why?

I just got 'humililated' or 'look down upon' by some people that i think not to be named.

I not exactly HATE them or SWEAR vulgarities at them as i do believe in someway i'm not in any position to fight back or anything. I have nothing behind me to support me.

No one there to say "Raymond, it's okay, do whatever you want and do your best, i know you can do it."

I really shout "WHY PEOPLE CAN DO IT, I CAN'T???"

Admiring people work, regreting why i can't do it, why i didn't start earlier.. so on...

I'm really tired sometimes.. Putting 101% time and effort to think and afterwards it's a shit work to people. Why?

Majority of people are doing better than me. I really feel restless, useless towards it. Damn.

Fuck you man. If you say you anyhow do and you got an nice little A on your results, That's not anyhow do. So do not come infront of me saying that you do not put in your effort.

Determined.

I WILL BECOME BETTER THAN THEM.

Well...

2008-12-16T00:52:00.002+08:00

I realised something funny lately - I kept saying the word ' Well...' as my first word of my sentence. Well.. its kinda 'cool' or rather 'intelligent' or a word of a 'wisdom'. Ok, thats some crap ha~ Ok, enough of that thing, back to topic that i want to say today.

I do not have the real feeling to blog lately as i don't really think there is or there are anything for me to blog about. Perhaps blog about what time i wake up and what i eat for breakfast? Nah~ All crabs to eat. Well, blogging is all about saying out something that you just can't rant it out in real life. It sort of serve a purpose of a punching bag when you are angry. ( I certainly do sometimes, and type my keyboard with enormous strength.'

Well, today blogging is about saying things that i feel. (duh, of course) Hmm, well when Sihui (Important person to highlight) tells me to do the quiz erm sort of a quiz on 'what your friends do to you and how much you understand them/like them.) Well, really i have to really stress this point..

True friends are really hard to find

In our lifetime, every process you go through you get to know friends, you get to know a lot people, remembering their faces and their names. Saying hello everytime you meet them. Well, they are sort of a 'Hi-Bye friends'. After that process ended, everyone just keep a distance from each other and the distance increases each day.

Well, you sure will find one really really good friends that you will only find and you will talk to into deep personal subjects. I do have some but not many you can count it in 10 fingers. Perhaps, i must say 1 of them is Sihui. Well, it is getting emotional when i'm gona say this. Well, we are brothers and sisters don't really get confused when she is a girl.

Well, let me tell you something about her.. Perhaps you all don't know, she is a person that is really strong in her feelings. Well, after knowing her since sec 1 when she called me to become her 'kor' and the calling me kor is a common thing already by now. Well, she is like a very hard and sturdy iron wall to me. She is a strongest girl i ever seen. I still remember that once in her blog, she wrote all her personal feelings towards all her close friends. Well i'm gona reply her today. Well, i don't know why i suddenly think of that, but i just want to write it down.

To Sihui:
(Well, this is not any confession letter mind you although it sounds like one =.=lll) Okay look. What i felt about you is that, everytime i talk to you, i feel like a leaf floating on a smooth river. I felt that everytime i talk to you, i feel very easy in mind, although sometimes i don't agree and quarrel and you ALWAYS win. I don't mind that as it add some sort of entertainment to me. lols. Well, these years its always you tell me what you feel rather than i telling you what i feel. I'm still finding who am i so i don't really know what i really felt (confusing eh?). Okay look, i feel that you are such a good friend or sister. Sometimes, with you around felt so easier and comfortable.

9. If he/she dies, you will ?
I will not know what will happen to me, i will certainly cry out loud, 'i had just lost a true and nicest friend to me'

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you ?
Kor!!!!

SEE I TOLD YOU IT SOUNDS LIKE CONFESSION LETTER. Omg that is why guys don't really want to say what they feel and get a lot misunderstanding from the girls.

Taa daa. Well, i replied your message Sihui. Well, i don't know if you will having tears flooding your house but certainly you felt something ya? =D

By: mcrox13

You helped me laugh, you dried my tears
because of you, I have no fears
together we live, together we grow
teaching each other what we must know
you came in my life, and I was blessed,
you are the best, release my hand,
and say good-bye please my friend don't you cry
I promise you this, it's not the end
'cause like I said you're my best friend.

AHHHH!!

2008-11-28T22:47:00.003+08:00

Nothing can describe how angry I am right now.

Firstly, I'm freaking sick. Down with a running nose as a start of a small snowball and later on picks up more snow named 'FEVER' then it takes up more snow named ' COUGH ' and more and more comes along until I have no energy to do anything.

ARGHHHHH!!!

I was coughing and sneezing at the same time DURING MY OFF DAY- WEDNESDAY. Planned to get a good rest after a few days of torture by the guy named ' HOMEWORK'

IN the END...

Freaking DEVILS just knock at my door and say

'Ding-dong, you have just got the first prize and here is the reward'

ARGH! I have to finish up my Digital Imaging homework with a box of tissue and a rubbish bin as my most 'best accompany' friend ever.

My nose is just like a freaking water tap that can't be fixed. I felt like screaming imitating those mad women screaming when their water tap broke and make their house to a swimming pool. Okay, That describe my feelings ---- mad.... Mad..... MAd.... MAD

MAD!!!!!!!!

Being sick SUCKS TO THE CORE. I can't do my work smoothly, my right hand shakes every 15secs with my left hand holding on to my running tap trying to fix it but to no appeal. Perhaps i can call this another art name.

Sneezing art.

Can you imagine it? My whole body just shake from the head to the toe every 15secs and somemore in a really stupid manner when the cough want to come at the same time. Its like 2 top mafia of the world knocking down your door and boom your door with a bazuka.

Kill me please~~~

Perhaps coughing can make another type of art. The coughing art. Adding colours in my saliva and cough it out. Perhaps it can make some nice splashes that even a brush can't do. Somemore that freaking fever is burning my head with like how many degrees? HMM, maybe as hot as the sun maybe? I can feel like my memories are being burned away in every secs. Damn IT!

I don't even have the energy to talk to people furthermore to do work. Luckily my school bookshop sells Ala-carte medicine. Cool huh? I don't have to buy that freaking expensive box of medicine that cost freaking 3 dollars ( equivilant to my lunch) and furthermore my house got tons of them.

Back to the Ala-Carte medicine, it provides all medicine man. Really, from stomach-ache that remedy powder to panadol, Panadol-extra to even flu tablets or even manusturation tablets for females and somemore got some flu relieve kind of lemon hot drink. I didn't really see if there is some srepsils( spelt wrongly sorry) available there. I think my bookshop really turn to a mini pharmacy somewhere in the corner. Guess what, it cost like 30 cents for each tablet. Oh man, freaking cheap.

After eating that flu tablet and 2 panadol-extra for fever/headaches, my head is like cooled down. If you all still remember in the past there is a cool advertisement for HALLS - super hot black colored cover. It showed that the sun is being cooled down by the halls and become winter.

Kinda lame, but it describe my fever totally. But my body still weak but not as terrible when i just came out from the drawing 2 lecture. But the FLU tablet is NOT WORKING. My water tap continued to flow until i had to take an extra packet of tissue from sufian.

Ok enough of the freaking sickness. Now for the 2nd focal of the day...

I LOST MY PENCIL BOX.

Guess what, the first thing you guys would worry is, how many things are in that pencilbox. I'll tell ya....

1)My precious set of pencils
2)Black marker pens
3)Durable Erasers
4)Rulers
5)100 Black Copic marker
6)9B daler-Rowney Pencil'
7)A few Coloured pens i bought

Omg, you cannot feel how i felt just now when i search my whole room upside down and i realize it is gone. I can only see money flying out of windows and i had to wave at them and say Bye-bye. Can you imagine it? ALL MY PENCILS, from the range of B, 2B, 4B, 6B, 8B, 9B all gone like some gas disappearing??

ARGH!!!

I can't imagine how careless am i. I think i left it in the drawing class. Confirm with guarantee chop. I hope it is still there if i go grab it next week. I HOPE SO!! *PRays hard to god* My percious pencils and my 100 black copic marker which cost 5dollars!!!! and the markers i bought with 2 dollars each and all the the things COST LIKE BOMB. This is freaking serious than the terrorist attack. I am now like a warrior without a weapon, without a weapon, i can't do anything but to struggle.

Ok enough of rattling and complaining here. It just feels tooo goooodd to just SAY whatever i want here.

wierd feelings..

2008-11-23T00:02:00.002+08:00

These days, i do not know if i'm in the right mood or being myself lately.. I really felt like i am in a unknown world or something. Something that i can't describe in words. Maybe i am over-thinking about stuff and perhaps think too far away. It sounds a bit lame - A stream of loneliness is coming in my body. I don't really know why. Perhaps i don't have someone for me to say out my heart currently. None in mind for now. Really none.

"To find a friend is easy. But to find a true and everlasting friend is difficult."

I don't really figure what kind of things is bothering me these days. I felt i just need a person to talk my heart out. A person that just listen to me, understand me and just chat with me. Family members as a choice - Rejected. I have a complicated family, to simply say, my family is just my family. To open my heart and tell my family? Nah, not suitable. They just don't understand me. My brother, my sister, my mum and my dad. I am the smallest, the one who get the most care and the most bias one. Perhaps is some huge age gap i have with my mum and my dad. I did tried opening up my heart to them but they closed it themselves. As in whenever i say anything related closely to myself, they will comment on it till i can't go on. I don't really how to describe it in words, really. It's just some repulsion force that prevents me from telling them anything related closely to myself. Like 2 like poles are faced to each other, they repel themselves from each other but they still remained in a short distance closed together. That wil describe how i felt towards my family. They are just my family members, caring, warming and whatever you can feel in a house i have it. But saying personal stuff simply ' how i feel today' is wrong in my family.

Perhaps for good stuff like I succeeded in something, i will even consider if i want to tell them or not. When i get a C+ for my assignments IF i tell them about it. Their first impression about C+ is very bad. They will maybe comment it why or saying i have been playing too much computer games or not focusing or maybe saying im slacking. It have been the same thing since young. The repulsion just kept increasing and increasing till i'm numbed about it - Why don't i just don;t talk about it. It will save some saliva of them, and save some ear piercing time.

Serious Depression?

Nah~ Truely speaking, during the most stressful moments in my life - O levels, i really thought of just jumping down the window. Not joking. I am really stressed, i felt like a million kilograms of burden just smacked down on my shoulders to do well in o levels. The stress is so great that everytime i glazed out the window and looked at the sky and far sight trees. I just felt a gush of feelings to just jump down and end everything in a thud and thats it. I have to walk that path no matter what. It is just part and parcel of life.

Life is like that..

No matter how many times this is repeated, Life is like that. Life is filled with all sorts of uneven and mixed feelings and a lot more. Sometimes you will say LIFE SUCKS or LIFE IS UNFAIR or LIFE FEELS GOOD. Whatever, heck about what kind of life. i just know, my life now is never been happy before as i can't find or create one in it maybe it is not the time yet. Not yet...

I just know in the current me, i need to get as much improvements as possible. I'm still TOO far from the goal. The goal is simply just can't be reached now. Competition is really tense, Challenges is appearing everytime. I just can't rest.

currently, for my life is Uninteresting. Its full of thorns ahead and i have to cross it. I feel really really tired. I did want to stop everything and just rest. but... i can't , i just can't. The things i want to do in my life is simply too much. Too much for me to rest. i want to do this , i want to do that. perhaps i cant figure how much years i will spend on learning and trying and experiencing.

I don't really know why am i feeling this way. This is not me man!! what the heck...

Heck it.

Sudden feelings~

2008-11-16T18:22:00.002+08:00

It's another normal day - a really really normal day. It's kinda boring these days. Ever since i came back from my japan trip, i realised something - I had been giving a lot of empty promises or perhaps excuses to myself.

Perhaps, this is life. When you have the 'in' feeling that you 'WANT' to 'DO' , it just gradually disappear in no time. Okay i know that its kinda lame shit, why bother giving yourself excuses saying ' disappear' instead of saying in a straightforward word -

'LAZY'.

Perhaps this is me. I'm still finding out who i am, what i want to do, what exactly i want. If you think that you know your ownself well then you are wrong, very wrong. Instead the one who knows you yourself well is actually the people beside or around you. Of course this is my own opinion, you can choose to agree or dissagree for what i care.

I suddenly have some feeling to do some blogging today, when i hear some songs that i ususally hear when i'm doing some serious work overnight. It's some memorable experience that i had during my life. Doing work overnight is something really something that is worth experiencing. As in doing work and not playing. Playing overnight and WORKING overnight is TOTALLY different.

For myself, when i do stuff overnight, i realized there is a sort of a period of 'sleepy-ness' as in that period your body and your brain is trying to 'psyco' you to 'go slee, go sleep'. I'm not joking.
that period for me is around at 1am or around 1.30am. When it start, you just cant resist it. You must close up your vision ahead, lie your head on the working table filled with papers undone and rest.

Of course, you won't sleep well because all the undone papers will become ''ghost" and try to haunt you. After 1/2 hour or so, get a hot drink like tea/coffee and drink a sip of it, wash your face, and you will be refreshed as new. Trust me, it is tested on myself. I don't know if it is true or not, but i just know that it is true for me, if it is true for you perhaps tell me?

Now back telling what has been happening in my course. Currently i had started Semester 2 not long ago. I think we students feedback had sort of a power in it. Whatever we said in the feedback paper towards the teachers served as a--

"hammer trying to imply some crack in their rice bowl. I think for now our hammers are not as strong to make a crack but we can still make it unstable( shaking)."

They make a relaxed kind of homework for us, trying to make us do all the work in class rather than doing at home. Its kinda a push for us to make us to complete it within a time limit which is 2hours or 3 hours time and hand it in. It probaply is a good practice as it can train me on the time limit i required to do work. ok whatever, back to topic.

Last semester, we gave super strong feedback on softwares teaching. Perhaps, it really had a strong impact on what we said. Even Ms Gail said ' We, Teachers received strong feedbacks from you students, Really STRONG feedbacks from you.' Then i realise that, that feedback is working.
We all complaint that, the softwares like photoshop, digital painting, or any softwares introduced to us is not well taught. We did not learn anything. Its not like attending a school. We must do it independantly, learn it independantly, everything is on our own. Its like having a teacher and do not have a teachers doesn't make a difference at all.

This time perhaps, they take the feedbacks seriously and now all the new softwares introduced are taught well. They teach in a way that sort of slow BUT CLear for people to learn and grasp it clearly. That is called teaching well enough for students. For you all to know, i'm now learning the 3D maya software and mastering adobe illustrator. It is well taught i must say. Everything is clear well transmitted to us.

Perhaps, That's it for today! =D Feeling a little emo and a little mixed happiness in it. Currently still figuring out why am i emo-ing for no reasons at all. LOL

still finding who am i.

Really this is cool~~

2008-09-25T00:04:00.003+08:00

You are a Romantic Seme!
A true romantic, you're safest sticking with a partner who is gentle and can appreciate your mature, loving ways and protective nature. Most often found with a handful of roses and wine, you are committed to your partner and their happiness, which makes you a perfect match for the Innocent Uke, who you will dedicate yourself to and lavish with gifts and attention.

Most compatible with: Innocent Uke, Clueless Uke
Least compatible with: Badass Uke, Dramatic Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

lol~ found out by Shu Yun who gave me this link and i did the survey! It's really funny and some sort of disturbing BUT it gave me some nice answer. ( i did it 100% truth on what i will answer ok??)

today i just went with my Japanese trip gangs and headed to CHINATOWN and walked awhile. I saw something REALLY REALLY FUNNY!!!

there is a small closed street stall with a blue cover on it. And on the sort of the shelter of the stall there are 2 small little note there. It says....

'Smiles, You are caught in the camera! "

" Want a free ride to the Police Station? Just shop-lift one of the stuff and you will just get the ride for FREE!!"

its like hmm.. okay!!

Damn humorous La!!

later went on to eat dinner after shopping some souvenirs for the japanese students. Guess what, Vinod and Glen was there saying about some freaking dirty jokes until i laugh until cannot control my mouth which was like filled with rice and some meat??

Ah~ nothing much to say today anyway~ i shall just end here abruptly!

This what i feel and this is what i see

2008-09-24T00:06:00.002+08:00

Ok.. First before i explain why i said that piece of statements my title.. Let us first discuss about something. The topic of today is "Do you agree that youngsters nowadays are more and more bold in their actions towards their opposite sex?"

Hmm.. Let me share my views perhaps.

Firstly, perhaps these days youngster ARE more bold and open-minded than the olden days, but this may not be 100% true. These are perhaps apply to some couples or some teenagers(teens). Like in the past, all little couples have to secretly go out for a small little date outside without letting their parents know. Even IF their parents do know their kids are outside dating, they would not even let them go far away out of their sight, making sure they do not make too much of an intimidate actions that they described as a taboo actions.

Youngsters nowadays are TRULY more open-minded in that sense that now in the modern days, hugging, french-kissing, small little peck, or holding hands are a common sight at everywhere. However, do you actually agree you will like to see someone french-kissing in front of you in the general public with a lot of people walking around.

For my point of stand, perhaps i stand at the disagree side. Perhaps, in the older age people like the age of being a parents or even grandparents will say it is very 'dirty' to do 'it' in the public with so many eyes looking curiously what those couples doing.

In my own point of perspective, i do seriously think that a serious couples as in really love each other that you cannot live without him/her, french-kissing is a common act for them or hugging each other is more important than eating or drinking water. But seriously, acts like this perhaps not shown to others is a more appropriate way i will say. Although, Loving is one thing, LOVE is another thing, but some intimidate acts are perhaps are done somewhere there are less people more private to the couple. Perhaps, for my opinion is much better?

You may now criticise me that why are you saying such stuff when you do even experience this kind of experience before? I do know that my stand now is not really strong as i do not really have that kind of going into really serious loving till you will die for her. But what i am trying to convey is that, even you two love each other, think through your brain cells and think doing such acts, is it appropriate for so many people to see? Even as loving as you can be, hugging and kissing are good for a love transmittion each other i can say.

I know that people who read this blog post will get some negative feelings towards me. But this is what i feel and this is why i'm saying out loud to you. Even though i did not really say out in front of your faces, but instead this is why i will write here even more.

What are friends are for anyway?

I think friends are those people that have their own heart words circulating in between them.

And i do think that i am your friend, the one who never hides things from you.

Seriously, i FELT really really fed-up with the barbaque organised today. I know you all have some nice boyfriends there and girlfriend. Look,

I'M SINGLE!!~~

and I'm not invisible there, i'm there to have some crazy fun and i'm there to enjoy, and not to like look at how blissful you all are. Come on,

I always believe there is always time for a private moment with your love ones and some time for your other friends which are a part and parcel of your life.

if you named the outing as a couples meeting. Please.. Do not call me along as IM SINGLE not attached. i can't possibly find a invisible girlfriend to accompany me to that outing.

instead of talking about the history, let's just move forward and throw this behind our back and just forget about it.

ok let me talk about what happened in school today.. basically nothing much really.. but let me add some pictures to do the talk.

Someting i saw inside my bus.

Some pictures when i'm in the japanese school.

End~ Cya!

Ah~ another nice day in holidays!

2008-09-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Actually today it started out nicely at home waiting for the sms from Yao Xiang to tell me to get ready. He sms-ed me at around 9am i guess. I guess love sleeping though stay there on my bed for quite a time till around 10am and i tell myself,

if i don't wake up now, i think later on i need some cotton wool to stuck inside my two poor ears..

Anyway, when i met Yao Xiang at around 11.50am like that (was supposed to meet at 11.35am - as usual i'm late..), he gave me a evil look i guess i will have to smile and smile to make it off i guess. ha~

Later on, met Dickson , Jun Xiang and Si Hao at jurong entertainment centre there and they went off to CPF building to go to the Recruit Express to get a job.

i kinda got some experience with Recruit Express Job Agency, but mine is at Taka at orchard. perhaps it is much larger and much more higher level than the jurong one.

Strangely, Recruit's enemy is just opposite - Kelly services it was like lols~ wth?

Anyway.. what i think job agency is sort of a Fast and quick way to get a job but once u get the job and tell them your working deadline, YOU MUST do it to your deadline. Plus you may RISK of extention of your deadline by your boss due to various reasons or so.

SO....

If you get a fucking boss out there at a fucking company.. hmm i think you better have some mental preparation.

That's what i guess. Luckily when i went to get a job , i get a quite nice boss =D so generally it is still ok. BUT .. IM ALMOST BEING EXTENDED. omg ~ later on after much talking, they agreed with my various reasons. ( although i admit some is fake.. SOME not ALL)

Anyway i today went to watch a VERY NICE MOVIE!! --

~Death Race~

Trust me. Go and watch this movie. The whole movie is action-packed. NO TALKING BULLSHIT, NO CRAPS, NO LOVE LOVE, NO FREAKING EXPLANATION --- JUST ACTIONS!! it is really nice i guess, expecially with all the bombs and stuff and the most classic killing the so called bitch at the end.

im so sorry~ it is NC16 with loads of bloody scence due to killings. so no children allowed =x

anyway... lately my mind is just full of playing and next is still playing. Holiday is such a nice period of time. But pathetic 1 month is JUST NOT ENOUGH FOR ME!!! oh man. i need a long break before i go into my no sleeping mood and chiong-ing mood. Ha~

that's all i guess~ More to come! provided i've some thinking process in mind.

Dreams~

2008-09-05T11:40:00.002+08:00

Actually what exactly is dreams like every night? Dreams... perhaps from what i know is that, dream is actually is something created in your right side of your brain as most of the time you only use your brain to think about things.

Dreams..

Perhaps I'm a person who dream a lot. I just woke up with a fresh dream in my mind. It's quite funny.

It started out I'm in my secondary school canteen, Chua Chu Kang Secondary, standing in front of the malay stall buying food for myself. I saw quite something really funny. The settings is rather quite dark, seems evil but not as evil as it seems.

There is only a WHOLE big container filled with nuggets and some hot-dogs for students to choose from.

The main dish is Bee-hoon. And that's it.

I said out to myself in front of the stall, " That's all huh? ( in Chinese) "

So i go on choosing the 1 hot-dog and 3 nuggets and some bee-hoon on my plate and asked for the price. The usual malay stall auntie pop-up and say

"show me."

"Ok," I showed her everyting, and even used the fork to let her see if i take anything extra and hide inside the bee-hoon.

*She went on using her little fingers and go on twinkling around my food, counting the price mumbling to herself and add on altogether like a small kid.*

She then come face close to me and said something really shocking.

" This one only 70cents only leh."

" What?" i replied.

" Is this a very big difference from your country?"

I think for a while ( i don't know what am i thinking), and took out my wallet and took out 3 coins out, clearly is 50cents 20cents and another 50cents. When i hand it to the auntie, it seems that i gave extra to her. As usual when i buy stuff i said,

" Is it correct?"

" Ya," the auntie replied while nodding and stood there straight (really straight as if she is going for a march or something.)

*BlingK!*

I heard some coins drop on the floor but i didn't care much i guess. I took the plate and sat down to the nearest table and saw Cong Fu there eating too. I shouted " Hi!" and he replied 'hi!" back. It's kinda lame to me i guess but it is still a greeting still haha.

After putting down the plate, i didn't sit down instead i turn my head towards the malay stall and saw a coin on the floor. Without thinking, i affirmed myself that coin is mine and soon walking towards the stall. A long haired, small eyes girl took it up for me and back facing me, and gave it to me like a secret letter giving out in a row of students. I took it straight and walk back to my seat. Strangely, I turned back, and the girl was looking at me, and i smiled and say Thanks!

Almost immediately, i appeared in front of my bed, with a bad stomach-ache with hands holding on to my stomach. I glanced at my messy bed (as usual).

I woke up

This time is wake up in the bed. Hello, it is real life now~~ and stood up and look at my bed. It is strangely same pattern as my dream. It is really such a weird dream i get. I don't know why, i myself never had once a nightmare or bad dream or some sort of killing dream kind of thing or murder kind of thing. All the dreams so far, is either those sad once or those weird kinds or perhaps funny.

Sometimes, my mum wake me up and asked me,

"What happen? What happened to you??"

Me half-awake, " Huh?"

"You crying in your dreams!! See your eyes filled with tears."

"HUH?" i touched my cheeks and realized i was crying. I forget what kind of dream i was dreaming about, but it is something i was sad about.

There was one time, i dreamt about Liang-Po-Po (one of the comedy shows featuring Jack Neo) and was smiling all the way until my mum again wake me up and asked my what exactly happened to me. Lols~

Perhaps, dreams are some sort of entertainment i guess or somethings that is close to your own heart but you dream about it to happen instead of happening in real life. There is a lot of sayings that if you dream about something about numbers, get those numbers in the 4-D it will come out? It happened to my brother once and got some extra money out of dream? how i hope i get one and not forgetting after i wake up of course.

Anyway, to tell you all a good news,

I'M GOING IN JAPAN AT 27 SEPT 08!!

Do not ask me for presents though~ not saying i'm niao or i'm some selfish guy. BUT BUT japan stuff are really freaking expensive. Thrust me, a lunch cost about S$20 just eating a bowl of Udon only. Will be missing in action from 27sept to 7oct! MISS ME PLEASE~ haha~

Ha~ Sorry for the late post!~

2008-08-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

Just talk about today first.. I'm super fed up with my class i-c =x

It was a studio project meeting at 3.30pm and she called me to go get the design fundamentals assignment 1 & 2 at the bottom last pigeon hole.

It was kinda strange to me, to get the stuff out of the pigeon hole. Hmm, i would think much. I was thinking that wait till Ms Nop sees my work and then proceed on to grab the assignments.

She called again..

Can't she just wait?? Oh man~ Guess what? She told me Ms Wendy told her to call her when she pass the assignments to the class.

Oh man. I was like WHAT THE HELL??

So i went on going to Blk M to grab all the assignments. I saw the piegeon hole is locked. I straight away called Ms Wendy to ask her to open the pigeon hole to as to i can go get it. Guess what.. Ms Wendy do not anything what am i talking about and this what actually happened.

Ms Wendy called My class IC to get the assignment 1 & 2 from her. When my class I.C went to get it, instead of giving to the class in the Mac Lab at block Q which is a few metres away only, she throw it inside the pigeon hole and she called me afterwards.

' hello? Raymond ah? Can you go get the assignments at block M level 5 at the drawers there at the most right bottom? I'm now not in school."

" Oh okay, i will go get it"

I was damn fucking fed up.

She promised Ms Wendy that she will pass it to the class.

she didnt keep her promise and throw the work to me? Hey i'm only an ASSITANT I.C who is only suppose to do miscellenous work not do all your I.C job. I'M NOT YOUR PET DOG who you can order around. Do my face look like as if i'm your pet? Provided you pay me money i work for you perhaps i will consider.

Ok enough said. Feeling quite better now i guess =D after watching a lot of funny videos like this haha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNmmBYKb7y0

i couldn't copy the link here.. so i gave the website instead. =D watch it! haha~

Anyway that's it for today, imma abit restless to blog. Will update tommorrow or so. =D

Happy National Day!! =D

2008-08-10T23:26:00.006+08:00

Ha~ Happy national day! I was slacking the whole day, trying to find something to do. thinking..

" Should i start studio project or not? Or should i just slack around and just do nothing?"

that's what i think yesterday. haha~ Anyway, she called me out to go watch some fireworks at Mirina Square at around 4pm..

I WAS SO RELUCTANT..

i was already decided for the day that i will just stay at home doing nothing and just slack around and do nothing. When i get to know only there is only 1 guy with 2 girls in that group. I thought over it.. Decided actually i'll just go down just in case what ever happen in a super crowded place. Met them around 6pm and started sitting down and get ready to watch anytime. ha~ a bit too early i guess. haha kinda bored there but found some entertainment to talk. lols~

I Couldn't watch any fireworks..

so sad.. i could only see like pathetic halved size fireworks which is equals to nothing at all. I could only appreciate the sound? EH?? haha~

We went on slacking at the grass grounds outside mirana square until around 11pm and went to catch a movie which is the MUMMY! it was quite a nice show! 2nd time watching! ha~

haha~ later on went macdonalds had breakfast.. and we kept making the table shake and shake until tea and coffee spilled. Lols~

aren't the egg is way too big?

And end off with me~@ =D

Finally all is done & finished!! =D

2008-08-09T10:53:00.002+08:00

Oh my.. Oh my.. i have not taste this feeling for like how many weeks? The feeling of all assignments are done and resting kind. I REALLY LOVE THIS FEELING. i can Finally touch my beloved game in my com. Usually i always touch com to do homework like..

Colour..

Codid..

Design Fundimentals..

Drawing..

ok enough of all the complaints i had for all the modules. i think i've really moaned quite a lot when i doing the homework. Anyway even i moaned and complaint about this course's modules...

" This is what i choose and i'm still having loads of Fun in it!"

" The endless sea of knowleadge has no limits in which it can to add in knowledge in it."

haha~ speaking of Endless sea of knowledge.. i remembered talking about it when walking to Yio Chu Kang MRT with Shu Yun. Some really random idea came out. LOL

"Let's make the sea of knowledge to become the tsunami wave as when times goes by things get more and more and one day there will be a Tsunami of knowledge following and perhaps it will kill some town or something. Perhaps the town is Called -- STRESS TOWN -- haha~"

Wee~ =D

this will a SUPER SUPER LONG POST to update all my lost posts~! =D

2008-08-02T22:41:00.007+08:00

let me start all the way 20 july 2008. It will be a super long post~ so get ready~ =D. Let me do from today till 25 jul y 08..

Saturday, 2 August 2008

Fun Fair!!

GUESS WHAT~!!!

i actually woke up at 8am? That's a freaking miracle to me for a person who always, ALWAYS, woke up late at saturday, actually woke up at 8am ! okay partly the reason why i woke up at that time is that i actually slept REALLY REALLY early yesterday.

Actually after i bath and wash my teeth and changed my clothes.. i CONTINUED TO SLEEP. ha~ as expected lol~ later on i meet up with my class 4/8 to go crazy at Chua chu kang sec Annual Food and Fun Fair. ha~ went on eating Mdm prema's prefects stall food. it was rather quite nice with cheese hotdog with 2 small honey tomatos on the stick but it is 1 dollar though. i think more or less expensive but for a charity like this.. perhaps it is okay? haha~ Theres some picture of the fun fair with some teacher. ha~

i really felt so comfortable in my secondary school.. everything so familiar, everything seem so close to me, the place i went running around for four years, the place where we have to fight in order to get a air-conditioned classroom during the hot afternoon. Whatever it is, this will be a memories and will not be re-played again. ha~

Anyway I WATCH DARK KNIGHT TODAY!

Finally, for a millions of years time.. I finally went in to a cinema to watch a movie. A rather quite nice movie.

ha~ the joker was really nice. I have to comment this movie's is really really good. in terms of story wise, the plot the overall effects and sound are really good. Expecially the Half face

Joker without make up! =x

it looks really cool of the make-up. IT LOOK SO REAL LA =x really wondered how they do it haha~ anyway i do think that there will be another series of Dark knight ba~ ha~ the ending says it all... didnt end sharply but end as a uncontinued story. =D Too bad the clown died of drugs overdosage. Hope director are able to find a similar one.

"WHY SO SERIOUS.."

afterwards went to IMM banquet and had dinner. ha~ the laksa there is rather quite nice i guess. Not so hot, not so spicy and it is still able to bring out the smell out. Not bad not bad! ha~ we went go standing on the overhead bridge waiting for bus 188 to come go home ha~ and had some pictures! =x

Some of the zi lian pictures in 300 bus! =x i think im going to be photo-genie soon~ get into a hobby of taking a lot of pictures lately..First 2 is not me! Si hao taking pictures at 188 =X lols~

and lastly a fruit at the end of the day : DURAIN!!!

And thats all for the day !

Friday, 1 August 2008

Zombie like..

Finally ALMOST finished design fundimentals.. i finished 2 of the festive season design left 1 to go and im done. i've planned to do the last one at Design fundimentals class during the 3 hours and planned to do it finished within 1 hour and the next 2 hours to do some colour theory touch- up.

However...

my work was commented as too illustrative by my tutors. i was like stunned and don't know what to say.

i've spend the whole night from 11pm to 6am to finish this 2 work and you tell what i'm doing is wrong?! omg~ perhaps i couldn't get the message of design.

Let me show those work i did using the whole night. =x

but afterwards of what Ms stephanie (my tutor) said, as a motive, you need design that is similar to each and every piece which will link all together. When i decided on clouds, i was like thinking.. is 2 hours enough for me to finish all and mount together and hand it in? i guess not.. ha~ But i went on doing colour theory instead and decided to hand it in on monday DESPITE OF the degarde -,-lll heartbroken *degraded* sobs... ha~

Stayed at school for quite awhile and organise all the colour theory work together and i found out that Yi Xiong is so so so so so naggy!!!!! omg~ he was like rushing me in every 5mins~ damn annoying sia~ keep on saying

"Ms irene lim is quite unhappy about late works and she will start degrading after 3pm faster! are you done ? im waiting for you at Blk M mac lab when are you done?"

i replied, " Give me some minutes, burning files to the disc!! SOME MINUTES! omg"

he then call again after 2mins ' Are you done? Finish already? we need to go soon! when are you done??'

i was like -,- ENOUGH ! omg so fan~ if Ms irene really is going to degrade the whole class after 3pm i will talk 1 on 1 with her to settle why she degrade. ha~ and finally i finished and went to look for him and handed in the CD and Codid A4 media to mr Bhakta. Lol~ his face were quite annoyed i can feel but anyway i handed in already and thats it.

i was like so tired that day after dinner at school i went home and put down bags and sleep right away till saturday 8am ha~ =X

2 word... SHIOK ARH!

Thursday, 31 July 2008

the end of the world is coming..

i was like going to die soon..really soon.. woke up at 7am for visual Audio storytelling with a intent that today:

" Today, i'm NOT going to do Visual Audio.. Instead do Design Fundimentals or Colour theory instead."

Anyway i came late to the class.. but i do not care much and sat down with Eden and continued on to do colour theory and putting some final touch on my night scene. And this went on for like some time and i just lie down on the table and rested for half an hour. quite comfortable when you are really tired. i found out 1 thing:

" When you are tired, wherever you sleep on or rested on will be very very comfortable no matter what."

ha~ and for me i found the cutting mat of the mac lab rather comfortable. LOL..

When i reached home.. i decided to do design Fundimentals first.. BUT i just cant find any energy to do it during the afternoon. i began to do a lot a lot of the final sketches and some colouring and when it reach like 8am my stomach is grumbling like some wacking a hollow drum.

I just cannot work with a empty stomach.

if i work on something.. my stomach MUST NOT BE EMPTY.. if its empty.. all the stuff in my head will only filled with 1 word..

FOOD foOD!!! food food FOOD

anyway.. i only started doing design fundimentals around at 10pm and all the way the night to the next day.. i found out i'm going to become a panda soon... REALLY REALLY SOON...

Wednesday, 30 July 2008

OMG COMM SKILLS!!!@!@!

ok look~! I DIDNT STUDY FOR COMM SKILLS!!! omg i read read and read Janice Summarise notes and read the communication process and blah blah blah for like million of times but it just quite don't go in to my brain.

ANYWAY~~~

luckily, everything seemed to turn out well for the common test for comm skills. LT-2 is really cold. when i ask the teachers in there a question they actually answered so wrong -,-lll

i asked one of the teachers there.

I shouted from my seat with my hand holding up " Is it possible to increase the temperature of the air-con? it's kinda too cold here."

She replied " What? Can you repeat?"

i repeated.

She replied " You must wait till 6.30pm to let it tune down itself as no one else will be using this room after 6.30."

then i was lamed. Lamed at her answer. she is like answering another question instead of mine -,- when i say is it possible? she answer you wait till 6.30pm. Lol~ if i wait till no one use this lecture room then i ask you to tune the temperature now at 4.30pm for what? haiz~ somemore they are comm skills teachers...

Refusal to listen

ha~ in the morning went for the drawing only. And she went on marking on the spot on the sketchbook and the block. in the end she went on marking and commenting each and everyone till the end of the class. LUCKILY SHE DIDN'T FINISH WITH THE CLASS and had to continue next week. haha~ i have a week's time more to finish up with the final sketches of the block. ha~

Lucky me~ =D

Tuesday, 29 july 2008

CODID CODID CODID!!!!

ah damn when i went to school, i'm already late for Codid.. damn it. i had to print my A4 media too -,- and mount it too.

And guess what..

i left my A4 media in my laptop forgetting to transfer it to my thumbdrive and i have to suffer all the pain of degrading.. ha~ ANYWAY i presented my poster to the class explaining all the things i do to this freaking poster. it turn out quite well haha~

i handed in my idea book, the CD, the mounted A3 poster haha~ Quite happy when Bhakta praise me " nice mounting". ha~

i design Cups and Another poster design and A character design of my own. =D

ha~ tried to make the dog's eyes bloodshot lol~ but it dun turn quite well but its quite nice i guess lols~ =D

went on studying comm skills after a short nap till 8pm and study study.................................

i fall asleep without knowing..

lols~

Monday, 28 july 2008

Paint Paint!!

Colour theory oh man~ again~ the all assignments should be done by now by monday. Guess what!! When i asked Ms Irene Lim

"When do we hand in the colour theory?"

she replied..

"Oh. By Friday 5pm you must hand in everything to me as a class in a CD."

my face just smiled. =D

Omg.. i have extra time to work on my colour theory.. ha~

ok whatever it is.. i still have night colour to be done. i was like finding out which painting suits me the best to get that ' Feel ' in painting.

i do seriously think that doing art you must have something in mind.

To get the feel..

anyway.. once you get the feel perhaps you just have another surge of energy to continue on to do it. haha~ perhaps in the future i need this of FEEL to move on haha~

Today's Comm skills can be described as 1 word..

BORING ~~~~~

Today's aim in the comm skills is perhaps another boring one.

" To revise through all the topics once again and finish some last year's common test questions"

omg.. its rather boring to me.. in regardless of the topics or the module itself or the teacher.. some sort of too dry for me. ha~ Anyway..

Today is another nice day with some sort of resting but can't rest mind.

In my head there is only 1 word revolving around like those cartoons fainted they have birds revolving but instead of that mine is...

Assignments..... Deadlines.... ASSIGNMENTS!!!!

Really felt like screaming my head off and say

OMG JUST EXTEND THE FREAKING DEADLINE CAN? EVERYTHING ALL CRAMP TOGETHER !!!

Ahhh!!! off to sleep~ bye!

Sunday, 26 july 2008

RUSHING RUSHING RUSHING!!

A lot assignments due next week..

Colour... Codid... Design Fundimentals... Comm Skills...

omg can someone just pull me out of this assignments' pitless hole.

CRAP!!!

THIS IS NO ENDING!!!

yesterday was really a great day.. Guess what? I've basically SLEPT for the WHOLE SATURDAY. Both my mind and body is really really really really REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY tired.. i slept from 5am till 8pm, ate some dinner and slept at 11pm and woke up at ard 10am today.. LOL~!!

precious saturday gone.

Help~

Anyway.. after sleeping for the whole day my mind felt energized but my body isn't. i had to force myself to sit on the chair and do my CODID, the A3 Poster. ha~ Anyway.. its really a good feeling when i've finish CODID all in one day(but not all) haha~ afterall i've done the colour theory halfway through with day done and night undone. Ha~

Signing off~ off to work~

Friday, 25 july 2008

CELEBRATIONS!!! =D

First and foremost i propose the 'Early' birthday girl Wu Sihui!! Lol and Ah Gor here says happy birthday to you!! =D haha~

ok the celebrations is really fun.. before i talk about What happen in the morning of the class.. i will say the celebrations first!!!

Loads of pictures to come!!

Went to a hong kong restaurant at bugis junction lvl 3 =D Some food There!! =D Sry for forgetting those food name!!

Hong Kong Mee i ate! With some sotong and SPECIALLY NICE BEEF!! nice sauce in it =D yummy!!

if i'm not wrong this cost like $1.80 and it is VERY VERY NICE!! =D With peanut butter on top ( its ALOT) and the skin is crunch omg! NICE!!!

Min Er Ordered this! the beef noodles!! the beef is omg-ly fresh and nice! =D

Chicken pasta i guess~ i think i'm wrong. it is feel with CHEESE and chicken meat!! nice!!!

Me shocked at how nice the bread was.. funny right haha~

Jing Ting ordered this. i Forget what it was but it is quite similar to Sihui's pasta. Very nice also!!

Me with a evil look that i just stole 1 mouthful of cheesy chicken on my fork! =X i was so high today!! lols~

Crazy-ing at the restaurant.. i found out i was rather quite crazy there LOLS~!!

Sihui-mei and Jing Ting =D

Stun man Clarance doing flashing TISSUE PAPER!

From left: Sihui , Jing Ting, Min Er, Me =D

wa seh~ Sihui suddenly become so pretty in this picture! LOLS!!

Desserts!!

My Milk Tea! =D (not produced by me ok?)

Later on we chated about some jokes and set ourselves crazy laughing lols~ later on clarance stead with her friend came here with us and talk to us. Her friend is rather cold haha~

LOL~

i propose that we are the family members of clarance before she came here and sit with us. i shall say out family member.

Clarance's Sister- Min Er

---"------'s little sister - Jing Ting

---"------'s Mother - SiHui

---"------'s Father - Me

We are like laughing all the way and evil planned when clarance went to fetch her stead and her friend over to us. Prepare a few questions like Girlfriend meeting with boyfriend's family like that.

' what's your age?'

' what do you work as?'

' what does your parents work as? '

' what are you doing now?'

' what's your annual income?'

LOL

we were laughing there and when Clarance Stead arrives i introduce each and every member to her and i burst out laughing unable to ask her those serious questions lols~ damn funny la! lol

Too bad we can't drink the super BIG Milk tea specially free for birthday person. or else we could have some crazy pictures there also. ha~

here's a picture of the 2 of them!

ha~ after all the drinks we decided to go to clark quay. BUT Before proceeding on we went to first floor and there's a food junction there! Sihui bought some hot fudge mash-mellows!

damn ugly shot! ha~ i going kena bash up haha~

this found in F-Fox branded stall in bugis.. you won't believe your eyes..

later on we went clark quay the Mind Cafe! Went crazy over some boardgames LOL!~ Monopoly, some board games, bone game and the wad colour game and some reaction game. LOL crazy until i faint.. lols~

sihui hands as frame! ha~

clarance a bit angry? lols~

the fishball is damn hot la!

the dog bone game! lols~

sparkling lime! Sour~

sparkling apple! nice! =D

sparkling mango! best!

ice lemon tea~ Refreshing!

Lol i realize i'm like promoting their drinks ha~

Clarance flash hand again to snatch the snacks!!

best shot~! the snatching bone sight lols~

MinEr and Sihui

from left: Jing Ting, me , clarance , Miner, Sihui

Sihui lols~

Jing Ting receving forfeit singing the National Anthem using what? dog bone? HUH?

i realize i am out of luck -,- keeping entering MinEr's train station and giving her 2000 dollars each time -,-

i like this =D

Monopoly!

dead~ playing that freaking colour game lols~

Clarance and MinEr =D

Haha~ thats all~ and we went home at around 3am and fetch Sihui back to her creepy house and on the way i was like being stared by a bangla -.- walking pass him and he suddenly just TURNED and stared at me -,- wtf

If he dared to touch me If he is gay i will sure let him taste what is pain feels like. lols~

afterwards we went walking to the NR3 bustop and ran for the bus~ lols~ and reached home ard 4.30am and bathed and slept at 5am haha~

Guys it is REALY REALLY FUN! I WANT IT AGAIN haha~

thats it =D Cya

This is a double post for yesterday and today! =X

2008-07-22T14:19:00.007+08:00

Tuesday. 22nd July 2008

What a long and tiring day..

Okay let me tell you something that i just cannot understand. When people start get older and older, does that mean that they will see everything as a source of money and grab it without thinking who or what may think of them? ha~ i saw a really rediculous action man -,- a TODAY newspaper collection booth have a super long long queue for the newspaper. it stretch up to the bus stop there and block the staircase which is meant for the people to walk through to the MRT. i was like there standing thinking.. WTF? -,- just some newspaper, if your working time is not the same as the time the give out the newspaper then no need to bother to even line up for it la~ Thats really lame man wasting time there to take newspaper. PLUS i saw like so many aunties and uncles and grandma and grandpa-s over there lining up too. Oh man oh man are you sure you know how to read? or you just wanted to collect those papers and sell it to the garang guni for some pennies? man~ ok enough of my first cannot make it people.

2nd of my misery of the morning. when i saw like my mrt is arriving, i rush up to the stairs of the mrt and guess what i was blocked at the point where i can run to my mrt. Its like the people using the escalator is going towards the jurong side and its like one whole bunch of them. i have to squeeze through and say sorry and excuse me to run past. Guess what, when i rush out of the stupid crowd the mrt door just cruelly close shut right infront of me. damn it -,- LUCKILY I WENT THERE QUITE EARLY JUST TO PRINT. OR i tink i will get some percentage minus off thx to those bunch of people who blocked me -,-

What had happened in CODID is rather quite funny. i was like sitting around Ke Xin, Emill and Jie Xian and we started to chat some stuff and Ke Xin asked some jokes.

Ke Xin: Do you have 10cents?

Me: ya. Why?

Ke Xin: I want to call my mum that i saw an angel.

(if you don't understand it, ke xin is actually saying me is an angel)

ok i heard and Emill and Ke Xin was there laughing away and i smirked -,-lll but anyway its quite nice IF you say it romantically to a girl. it mean really a lot. ha~

Ke Xin ask again: Was your dad a robber?

Me: No?

Ke Xin laughing: you must ask why

Me: Oh..Why?

Ke Xin: Because your dad stole stars from the skys and put it in your eyes.

i was like lamed again~ =,=lll and again Emill and Ke Xin went on laughing again lols~

Ke Xin went on asking Jie Xian and laugh again and she remembered what Jun Xiang said was very funny too.

Ke Xin: Do you know that everytime you sign you killed an angel?

Ke Xin sigh~

Ke Xin: Why you didn't die?

LOL~ =,= ha~ ok then after this conversation Mr Bhatka went on lecturing us on the work i did and i guess we dissappointed him once again. ha~ i guess so i did only 1 SMC when he say we need to do a minimum of 3 ha~ ANYWAY i will show miracle in my work next week. =x with a drawing assignment i have to do it later on -,- damn a lot to do =x

Monday. 21 July 2008

ok i heard this in the show at channel 8 at 9pm. It sounded really cool..

" Even the God has closed a door which is opened for you, he will always leave a window opened."

i don't really get what it really means. this sentence came out one of the actor when she found out the person she likes has a girlfriend. i think this sentence sorta of similar to this.

"Do not give up a whole forest of trees for just one tree"

I do seriously think that i have some problems with myself. i should scold myself lazy for like umpteen of times but nothing just changed. Ha~

" A leopard will never change its spots"

Lol~

i agree i am a really really lazy person. ha~ Actually i woke up at 8am at the morning and my phone is ringing like the phone is going to burst soon. Why? i'll share why..

I set the alarm rings at 8am , 8.15am, 8.30am , 8.45am, 9am, 9.15am
i realized i fully used my function "alarm clock" ha~

of course this kind of thing will not disturbe my sleep. i will wake up at those intervals though but i just pressed 1 button and the sound gone and in 1 second im back in my dream world. ha~ but suprising i woke up at 8am automatically without alarm. what a surprise! maybe i should go buy 4D or something. Anyway, theres a reason behind it.. i drank too much water last night.. ha~ after that "relieving" session of mine, i was like sitting on my soft and comfortable bed and think whether should i go do my work or continue sleeping? while thinking my legs are begginning to shift from sitting positon to lying postion and the next thing i realize i closed my eyes and slept. LOL~

the 2nd thing that really convinced me that i should buy 4D today is that...

that colour theory teacher who i called a bitch actually teaches me how to get the correct colour mood i wanted!! oh man..

Although i do seriously think that she didn't get my question right. i asked about how to get those colours right for the cool shadow using the blue analogus she went on telling me how to do the right colour pallete mood.

lol.. what a miracle it is~ oh man. what really surprised me is the comm skills presentation. i do seriously think actually my class have some talent on talking in presentation. other than the dress code is totally off to the core but i can't imagine my class all wearing formal ha~ wonder what all the girls will look. lols~

Guess what when i went home, i do seriously think that today is a fruit day. Starting after dinner, i ate strawberries. The strawberries is like SO RED AND SWEET oh man oh man. TOO BAD ITS NOT LIKE KOREAN STRAWBERIES. korean strawberries is so sweet i can't forget the taste, even the sour taste good for korean strawberries. Thrust me. It's really good.

Next coming up i ate a banana - a super big size one. One of my uncle planted it and he modify the seeds and make it grow like super big like a fat ass banana and its very very sweet too. Of course he's not the one who modify, he's the one who planted the modified seeds.

NEXT - My fravourite... DURAIN! omg my dad went to buy 2 durians.. awww too bad only 2 -,- ANYWAY he always choose the one which have the smell is like so strong and nice to eat. ha~i ate like alot of the durian lol~ and went on drinking salt water and washing ha~ the duriain smell is so strong i even smell a pungent durain smell in my urine. ha~ too heaty i guess. BUT i drank like how many bottles and after bottles of water - plain water. oh man. plus i found out something really really cool about what my sis's boyfriend bought.

From the left: Papaya, MANGO, apple, orange, my hand

BIG RIGHT?ha! that white little patches is not mold but water vapour as i just taken out from the fridge.

signing off~

Wa Ha~!

2008-07-20T22:34:00.001+08:00

Ok here I'm getting a bit kinda fed up with myself pressing the back button without saving my post.. and guess what i kinda forget what i wanted to say.. oh damn it. anyway i did recalled some things i write.

Today is perhaps a lazy day for me. Everything seemed going so fast till i see the time now is already 10pm -,-.. Anyway.. i need to rush out my stupid colour theory which needed to be showed to the colour theory teacher tomorrow.. Anyway.. i kinda going stress out about all the works are needed to be done and next week is the last week for me to struggle through and Week 16 is the week of dead and the same timing of my funeral. Remember to come. i will send out my personally designed invitation really really soon ha~

Ok let me say this once again to those work i need to do..

CAN YOU ALL JUST EAT SHIT???

Guess what today when i look at chor chuan's blog i found out some really interesting things in there.

Very singaporean right ha~ our culture k? mai siao siao! lols~

Any let me PRESENT TO YOU......

The Joke Of The Day!

Qn: Form a perfect english sentence from these alphaberts 'aaabbbabababaaa'

don't know right??

Ans: Long Time No C (see)

LOL~~~ to me is very funny lols~~ i think you all will have a lame or cold-ed face =,= and say lame~ =,=lll or maybe those very high people will laugh their head off

Copyrighted http://www.flickr.com/photos/jcanuck/219603089/

Copyrighted http://www.flickr.com/photos/mnadi/7690658/

ha~nice pictures right~ will post more in later days =D

Anyway a lot people having birthday this month =X First i will like to say a Happy birthday to Michelle whom i know since primary school! cool right =x ha~ anyway.. and also know since primary school Yuan Zhi Clare =D lols~ who are having birthday tml =x

Okay now i really felt dying right now with loads of things not done yet..ahh fuck it -,- anyway it really felt really good to eat a big chicken that my mom had steamed =X the drumstick is ahhh nice~ really make my feelings feeling a little better and anyway~ i do really feel that everything will go just well tomorrow =x needa rush a lot of things tomorrow.. ah~

Anyway people, do not always stress yourself about the huge workloads that you are experiencing now.. its always good to just simply have some hours of resting and of course look at my blog and laugh ha~

ANYWAY ANY ORDERS OF DESIGNS OF COFFIN AND FUNERAL INVITATION CARDS?? SELLING FAST!

i shall end here~ =D

LTIF - Lucky today is Friday!

2008-07-18T23:34:00.002+08:00

LTIF - Lucky today is Friday!~

ha~ today went out quite nice- everything seems to go well ahead at design fundimentals.

Luckily..

All my 16 sketches turn out quite well... Ms Stephanie ( i finally remembers her name) was like hmm a bit angry that most of them didn't do the 40 rediculous sketches but however.. i do seriously think that...

Do you seriously want 40 Crappy sketches or do you just want 20 Good quality sketches? Or do you just want students to just do it for the sake of doing it to satisfy your requirements? i seriously ponder about it and when i think of it hmm quite nice sentence.. Ha~

Anyway i do seriously hate next week.. i just HOPE AND PRAY HARD that next week WILL NOT COME!! Oh Damn it lols~ the things are supposed to done next is getting abnormally increasing in the speed of light man.

Let me name it:
1) Colour Theory -> Digital painting on the day and night should be mostly done on time and all sketches should be done and going on to final already

( i have not even done the sketches finish yet and colour theory is at monday? HUH??)

2) Communication Skills -> people who have not presented last week must present this week and the presentation worth HALF of the weightage of the whole presentation.

( i have presented quite okay last week but planning to redo it with loads more content to improvise my presentation)

3) CODID ( concept development ) -> i also do not know WHAT THE HECK I'm suppose to do.. alright i will check it later..

4) Drawing -> Final Work drawing of Block M should handed in in class on Wednesday. Both A3 work and A4 work and 3 Sketches.

( i did not even finish me 3 sketches and the A4 and not even started on my A3 yet. Finding a time slot to do this is really giving me a huge huge headache )

5) Visual Audio Storytelling -> a theory test weighing 10% of ICA during lecture on thursday and editing of the story should be around 50% done with your partner.

( i don't even have time to do stuff already and whats about studying? oh man.. im going faint soon when i look at my partner )

And lastly the end of my misery...

6) Design Funimentals -> 10 final sketches of the chosen design of the festive season and all 40 SKETCHES should be done

imma going faint soon i kept on telling myself to hold on it, bear with it or rather i just say

CAN YOU ALL JUST EAT SHIT?

lols~

anyway let me upload once again one of my zi lian pics here =x when i high-ing around in my house before i set off to once again boring yet dream realizing and small yet big and stupid yet quite clever school.

Now..

After..

Scary or not ? ha~ just some playing with the contrast and brightness BUT the before picture is true and it is taken using my phone camera with a flash in the mild bright evening =D

hey hey~ =D my handkerchief drawn in pencil and paper =D nice or not =X

i start to get a hang of shading techniques already and now i started to understand not to be too high about what kind of work i like now as in the later part of my life i will throw that kinda of thing away into the rubbish bin.. But anyway, drawing will surely become part and parcel of my life. =D

Free cup at Macdonalds =x Olympics Special haha~ Gotta Catch Em' all opps should be Gotta Collect Em' all ha~

i think i will stop here ba~ see ya XD

hey hey i shouldnt be blogging now!

2008-07-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

okok let me tell you what am i doing right now. i'm suppose to rush out 40 thumbnails. yes.. is

40 freaking sketches..

Holyshit haha. Guess what? i now only done like hmm 6 out of 40? hmm perhaps i should stop blogging right now at this moment. But BUT BUT.. when i search for research in the net i saw some blogger posting some related pictures and i just cannot resist reading them and go on press the Sign In sign on the top right hand corner and write my own. really that kinda of feeling is kinda irresistable to me for my hand to shift my mouse in a few centimetres to the top right hand corner to press ( NOT THE CLOSE BUTTON ) the Sign In button. haha anyway i kinda lack of topic to say today perhaps. haha. anyway i cut my nails yesterday or should i say i ate dinner just now which is duck rice or should i describe my feeling in the toilet giving out big lump of brown gold? hmm lols ok enough of the lame things haha.. Anyway today i felt that emo or feeling a bit vexed about something..

i think is culprit is named DESIGN FUNDIMENTALS!!

i think even the stupid-est people or the most dumb person in the world will know that freak thing is the culprit. rushing for 40 thumbnails is a torture.. =x ok enough of that.. its like circling around my head to remind me to do it or else i will see a black face god teacher tommorrow staring at me with a sentence written on her face ' why didn't you do it ??' easily read from their face actually. haha

i think i will face much more problems ahead.. Visual Audio Especially.. my partner Eden is likely to miss a lot of the session and i have to work with him to do the thing. i don't really like solo doing all the editing of the videos which is the assignment assigned us to do it. Solo is good when you think of something and you put in straight. Its a quite clear cut to me. However, partnering is perhaps not as boring or giving comments to each other idea but no debating la. if debating i think will end up soloing instead. however i maybe just try working with others and see.. no matter what animation, you just can't JUST CAN'T do it alone. i do not know the reason.. BUT IT JUST DON'T WORK. ok enough of that.. i'm getting really sick, lack of sleep lack of everything.. i seriously do think do i really have free time in the whole week.. even weekend i'm bogged down with millions assignments, tests, a lot ++ cannot be explained stuff ( do not think in the wrong way, im still underage ok). anyway going out with Si Hui and Michelle to celebrate her birthday =x preparing to spend some money sobs =x

i seriously think i must stop here if i really want a hugh black outline around my eyes tommorrow and scare my teacher out of her wits. hmm maybe its a good idea to scare teacher sometimes but anyway i gtg will update tommorrow i guess..hoping to..

Hoping to..

Tired~

2008-07-16T00:12:00.004+08:00

here one of my zi lian pics before i go to school =D Im not shuai nor ugly just a average looking guy =x

Sometime listen what your own real heart say to you as your own heart will never have a time that it will ever lie to you.

I seriously ponder what will i be in the future, seriously. i soundedd like i mature quite a bit or perhaps i'm forced to? making decision for myself and making decision that decide my life is perhaps is not an easy task. perhaps this is me.

i really do wonder which is better: Animation or Games Designs?

Animation Or Games Designs???

felt like screaming my head off which can i choose? i do personally like games design a lot a lot. doing games is like creating a game of your own. how cool is that eh?? but the industry is that you must travel overseas to get a better job. i do seriously think that what will happen to me in the future? really with a games designer i really doubt myself..

Can i really do it? Or should i answer I CAN DO IT? Or will i be surviving in low income due to a less promising job? Or even will i just change my specialization in the coming future?

i have endless questions asking myself.. it will never ends whatever what happen. Guess what in a few months time i have to decide my path if i going Animation, games or IM. IM is a no to me. i dun quite like juz dead designs like logo design or web designer or graphic designer. Although the job is quite promising as u are surely ganranteed a job just that your pay varies to what you produce. BUT games are totally different even you are in a job perhaps your pay is just as the same as a cleaner. In fact i do seriously think about it. Do i really interested in animation? if i go to animation i will go in to jobs like movies editor , graphic designer(animation) or even as some animators for advertisement or creating a series of animation like japanese anime? truely it did interest me in the japanese anime as its currently the most hot in the industry.. However games.. i do think both are similar unless you produce a nice work in animation or a nice work in games , you will not earn huge bucks in your bank. BUT I LIKE GAMES SO MUCH....

i said this in my presentation:

Choosing your specialization is not exactly choosing a path that will give you huge bucks but instead choosing a specialization that is What you really like, What you really long for and giving your fullest effort in it.

hmmm...

What exactly is Love? i frequently ask myself..

Is Love a process for you yourself to suffer in pain in the inner heart even if no one ever stab your heart?

I seriously ponder about it.. really what is love..

Hey hey =D

2008-07-13T22:06:00.004+08:00

actually i started out the writing with enthusiasm when i juz finished one of my colour theory work.. i actually have too much to say today maybe too much to write it all out here.

Let me say about my class skid first..

FINALLY ITS OVER!!!!!

THE TORTURE IS FINALLY OVER

AND ENDED

FOR ETERNITY!

finally my class ended that fucking skid once and for all and its finally over... i can finally concentrate on my colour theory, my design fundamentals, my CODID, my drawing, my everything else.

this bloody sucker skid eat all my free time. kiss my ass man!

haiz~ i think i couldn't help it since my class is a CMI class you see. but anyway thanks to Sufian, Emill for the great job doing it~ it took like so much time there to finish preparing all the stuff and guess what I'm thinking of having at least 6 to 7 out of 10 there for the skid if not a 8 or 9 is not bad BUT I DOUBT SO..

ANYWAY~~~~

FORGET ABOUT IT AND THINK AHEAD!

Now what worries me ahead is all the bloody modules which have like tons of assignments and exercise for me to finish it. dots~ it will never end. thrust me.. IT WILL NEVER END MAN.
anyway for now i need to do a lot of stuff especially for colour theory which going on to the real digital painting which i think it will be quite cool as it serve as a form of test to me perhaps.

Yawn~

I think when i go out to work, the first work i do personally will be designing a coolest and nice-st COFFIN specially for Mr. Raymond Teo Liang Wee and designing a super cool and attractive deadly funeral invitation card for my relatives family and friends to attend. i think i will have to do ASAP as i think i will need it REAL REAL REALLY SOON...

let me share some of my SHOCKING images i found in the net.. its kinda funny ha ha

Disclaimer: Some of these images are taken from the internet and strictly not for publishing.

this is one of the stupid work that my CODID teachers wanted.. its kinda lame.. BUT HOWEVER SUPRISINGLY i got a B for CODID!!! omg i guess i can get a C+ but i get a B instead.. WAD A GREAT SURPRISED haha but anyway that really make my day. i'm so determined that :

"I'M SICK AND TIRED OF Cs, I WANT TO GET SICK AND TIRED FOR B AND SOONER OR LATER I WILL GET SICK AND TIRED OF A+!!!"

Certainly i will make it come true, this is my dream and this came about a lot a lot of hardwork to come to this stage with a aggregate of L1R5 of 11 and a L1R4 of 9 i can almost get in to the greatest school in singapore but i just do not want it as i guess making my own dream come true is the most important thing that i want to do in my life. But now i'm deciding whether my next stage of life going into games design or animation.. anyway in the first place before i made a greatest decision of my life, i went to NYP solely for games designs, but the attractive pay of animation just simply made me ponder on which path i want to take.. and guess what tommorrow is the day for me to present in front of my whole class to get on which decision i've made and say why i chose that. Anyway... i'm going to write a perfect speech on that, not too long and not too short just nice for me to say anything i could there.

let me say this..

' I think a person with a real goal in mind will make him/her mature quite abit. I'm not trying to boast myself about it but this is really what i want to do and what i am happy with.'

' Trying to find out the real you in your heart is a painful process and perhaps a tiring process, but once you found it, you will realize a happiness that you never experienced before and a whole new stage of your life will evolve.'

okay time for doing homework~ buai~

Untitled~ =D

2008-06-30T00:49:00.002+08:00

I found out really great about this blogging~! Choose your own font that bar~! WHAT a nice font they have there, not only they have only pathetically 6 fonts for me to choose from and PLUS 5 out of 6 are so similar in the fonts outline and that outstanding one is a kind of language that i think no one will understand in the world or MayBe? not sure~ ha~ ok enough with this stupid things ~

I realized something great about myself~ a sleeping pig with a sleeping record of sleeping at 2am to 4pm in the afternoon~ wahahaha maybe i should go Guniess World Record register my name of the sleeping the longest hour? or MAYBE registering as a human realistically too similar to a pig? hmm.. how about that? ok suan le.. no matter what i just can't really fight with those in born 'talent' to take on the prize of guniess world Record like strecthing your eyes to the longest lenght or eating bugs or eat steel ahh whatever~ its getting a bit creepy there.. eat steel ?! omg ~ i eat paper i require some time to eat it but eating steel is abit...

Hmm i found out a nice website which is:

www.laughoutloud.com.sg

is a quite a not bad website though just specially made for people around 10+ people to laugh until their stomach pain till they cannot take it and specially made for people around 16~ 20++ to feel REALY DAMN FUCKING lame about the jokes! but hmm some of the jokes is really lame but some is really funny. but what i realized that a most important part of a joke is who say it. if that person face is really damn funny, even a lamest joke or coldest joke in the world every1 will just laugh about it. hmm i tried with my friends at school but it doesnt turn out quite well.. hmm maybe i go plastic surgery and try to make my face funny?LOL just joking -,- why will i bother anyway haha~

However, weekends just pass by like an hour.. one moment a weekend past~ and VERY fast i will be there rushing out my studio project and stuff like that and now what i am suppose to do now is to get my basics right and accurate and best in quality to rush out 10 pieces of work to get a grade at the end of semester one! I HOPE A B-GRADE!! thats my aim not a C+ not a C im sick and tired of C-s maybe IF possible an A-grade! but i will try to aim it as far as possible i could reach it anyway this is my dream and i choose it and i will do it in my rest of my life and i WILL DEFINITELY wont regret it! =D i keep on telling myself not to get too stress about those people who excel in this course maybe hardwork is really the way out. i don't believe in talent, i believe in hardwork and putting effort will get a good grade. ha~

i guess i will just stop here eh? cya~ gtg to bed and get ready for school =X and very fast it will be another year ended...

haiz~

2008-06-28T01:15:00.003+08:00

Hmm, okay im confused with my actions. Oh man what the hell im feeling now.. i felt like im in a loss wondering what kind of decisions i can make.. What i'm feeling now is sort of never felt before.. i felt so tiring to go on with sms-ing and jio-ing.. its like im always needed there for only an emergency.. i was like hoping she will like sms me cause i don't even know when she will get her prepaid topped up.. even if it is topped up and so what? does it make a big diffrence out of it eh?

Hmm.. Maybe...just maybe...

Lately i was like so damn busy with work in school and having fun at home during the 2 weeks of holiday..

AREN'T IM SUPPOSE TO HAVE HOMEWORK AT HOLIDAY?! i was like praying hard each day that i will have some sort of A RUSH to do those homework due on the first week of the school starts.

Sadly.... it really don't turn it well you see.. haha =x as expected from my character.

However, through all the teachings and stuff like that i realized something.. i FOUND OUT A REAL GOOD FUCKING TRICK to do my fucking assignments and excercise!! =D but it is not a long term basis though.. maybe serve as a reference ehh? Haha ( not telling my trick or it will cause some people saying me cheating though i am but i just do not like it.)

Lately, i juz chiong finish Red Garden Series~ IT'S SO DAMN COOL.. although they have only 25 eps and the characters inside is rather not japanese type of anime but more like a foreign type of anime with all make on thick lips and curly hair BUT the storyline is cool, exciting, no fillers, no long talking, no stupid extra calafare.

the main characters of the anime
Main Story: New York... girls, who together, are introduced to cruel fates. They clash and fight over their differences in values...Kate, Rose, Claire, and Rachel go to the same school.Since that morning, they've been feeling something strange. They are told of the sudden death of a classmate, Lise. While they are grieving that evening, the girls find themselves gathering in an empty industrial street... as if they were led there by something.They do not usually hang out with one another, but coincidentally, they have had the same strange feelings and have lost all their memories of the night before. Hearing footsteps behind them, they turn and see a strange couple. The woman tells them a surprising and unbelievable truth: "You're dead."

This anime i awarded 4 out of 5 stars =D but somesort the japanese rock band naming LM.C popping out of the anime as sort of a extra =.='' but its a quite a good show with quite alot of actions and clear explanation. You may find esp 1 abit boring but when it goes on to second esp it starts the climax already. Short and sweet introduction =D

Now i was like chiong another show which is the 恶做剧之吻2. its a quite nice show =D watched the first three episode straight. now i better prepare some weapon to use to overpower my sister who is also want to watch it. =D

OMG durian puffs , durian muah chee, durian PANCAKE!!!! OH DAMN i went to AMK hub today with hafiz after some type of reporting his loss of his ezlink card , we went on to buy durian stuff =D its a quite famous shop =D AND THE FILLING OF THE DURIAN IS REAL AND NOT ARTIFICAL FLAVOUR!! omg its like so nice =x but the puff is 4 for 3.60.. almost a dollar for a small puff.. that means i cant eat for a lot of time if i want to survive with bread and kaya for a few days perhaps.. ha

SMILEZ

damn it

2008-05-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

argh my class is a worst of the worst i ever seen -.- this is the first time i see so many people talk without going through their head. talking out hurting people and she juz duno abt it thinking is a positive comment ? wtf and the other one a fking gal hu talk so fking loud at times and it juz annoy me when everyone is concentrating drawing and she is the one talking to the person beside her, talking so loud somemore =.= knn ccb it juz piss me off when i see her ' Angelic ' face of hers -.- i cannot imagine im sticking wif this kind of people for the rest of the year. how i hope dey juz get some debarment and i juz wont see them fking miss lessons and asking ppl to tap for her and after tt being a nuisance of herself to ask others of the lecture -.- and look at her effort, JUZ LOOK AT HER EFFORT and the interest of the course. juz by simply using look and u will noe it all. as wad the comm skills teacher say ' you can force a horse to a bucket of water but u juz cannot force the horse to drink the water' i find this pharse exceptionally nice fitting juz for her wad c0ck face she has. boasting tt she work and not worried of lack of money. juz fuck it. if u work for the sake of having more money why dun u juz spend some fking time on the work and make it nice? instead coming to class and say ' i duno how to do leh, teach me leh ' , ' i nv do leh, how ar? teach me leh i goin to do it now' oh damn quit it man such a disgrace man~

ok wadever it is to do wif her im goin to fuck care her and cont to realize my dream and this things wont become my stepping stone for me. dream is much more impt than bitches~ now i really realize now a person who studied alot and a person didnt study alot diffrence already. their brain juz cant configure wads goin on infront of them omg ~ not insulting people here im juz insulting the person dere dere in my class~ can see one see their face is juz a mask infront of a big devil, infront nice nice behind knn ccb one~ seen one~ taking note of that~

helly siht

2008-05-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

F**k F**k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH ass waterbottle freaking annoyed me in the morning, when i was like rushing for the ass 300 bus my waterbottle juz drop flat of the floor and when i was like running towards the bus wif the bottle in my hands, it juz drip and drip wif water and guess wad its broken at the line of the bottle when it was made. wtf~ it cont to drip in the bus, i had to slant it to make it stop dripping and test it if it is broken when i flick it when im sitting down and its true. wtf wtf~~@@!!!! den i went over to interchange to pour it away the water.

geuss wad~ when i reach i dont even have the time to tell my mum about the f**king water bottle that is broken and my mum took it and refills it and put in the socket beside my bag and it drips and drip without me noticing~ and geuss wad ?!?!! MY WHOLE IDEA BOOK IS RUIN BY THAT WATER!! IT SLIP THROUGH MY BAG AND WET MY WHOLE BOOK!!!!! DAMN IT !!! the pictures are smudge , the words are smudge the paint are smudged and in conclusion IT IS DAMNNEEDD RUINNED!!! FK IT MAN! I TOOK LIKE SEVERAL WEEKS TO COMPLETE AND IS RUIN IN LIKE A FEW MINS TIME?? damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! spoiled my mood of drawing! i wanted to start on my design fundimentals and this happens totally spoiled my mood wtf wtf!!! im goin to be affected tml !!!!!! damn it damn it!

feeling not very well

2008-05-15T01:36:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i tink im nt feeling quite well hahaz after jie xian told me that actually ppl do ned a rest and cant chiong chiong all the way, it will instead make u worse.. haha im working hard for this course i juz wan to learn this learn that ! i juz persistant in the learning no matter wad !! i wan publish a manga ! for me wad i tink is the coolest is the manga that i dream of making it and making it true in animations gagagagaga =x (crazy) although now is 1.40am in the morning and im typing out the blog hmm i do feel my eyes are abit lazy and wan to close up but my MIND IS AS CLEAR AS CRYSTAL =D hahaz~ (laughing inside my heart nt showing on my mouth) lols~

learning how to draw anime characters now.. haha tdy section hopping in my cca is quite fun actually. lol finally i can realise wad my section is doing =X I JUZ WAN TO LEARN JAPANESE!! jap language is so cool man! and somemore my cca has a exchange program wif the jap sch!! oh man i cant imagine the jap sch girls *drools* even dey nv dress up or something dey still look as pretty as ever rather than singapore girls hahaz~ actually one of my dream is to live in japan for long =X ecveryting is soo cool for me~ haha ok i know i listed too many of my dreams~ haha BUT!! pursueing it is another thing man~ haha im pursueing it so happily and fun =) i can imagine how big i am in the future liao LOL TOO FAR LE LA =x haha~ i started to be active in my frienster lols scanning cckss frens ard the friendster and add them hahaz~ but i guess adding other ppl is abit too lame~ coz u added SOOOOOOO many people and inn the end only a few realy wan to be fren wif u its like hmm no gd~ maybe a increase of the number of frens bracket feeling is gd? i guess so ba~ i do feel gd in an increase of of my number of frens bracket lols~ and testimonials oso ~ =X but its perfectly alright =)

sigining off to bed~

Yawnz~

2008-05-12T04:04:00.002+08:00

wad a long day at my grandma's house celebrating the mother's day its sort of quite fun or sort of quite boring at the same time.. lucky my cousin, wei ming was there man.. sort of quiet at start but afterwards we had same topic and chated quite awile and he guai lan me and i cant win =.=lll hahaz overall is quite fun aniway.. AWW I WANT TT SNEAKERS !! but its quite exp sia -.- 1 is $40++ and the other $50++ duno which to buy.. haiz anyway 40 or 50 is way too exp for a poor student like me.. ANY SPONSORS?? haha i guess no1?? rush home and had long long confortable sleep until 8pm haha and watch some tv and ate dinner woo~! slack awile and went on wif my stupid sketches of the colour theory -.- tinking i will see tt bitch tml my mood sure is affected.. but nvm i will bear wif this a pass this man my ultimate goal is MUCH MORE IMPT THAN THIS =D hahaz life really good for me =x pursuing ur goal is really really a best ting to do in your life and at the same time it change u totally in and out.

yesterday went to eat the seoul garden wif sihui and jing ting, people PLEASE DO NOT EAT THE SEOUL GARDEN AT BUGIS JUNCTION!! the service there is not very gd.. a senior waiter ask us ' can i ? ' and he pointed to the plates and we agreed. but instead of only taking away the plates, he took all the tings away including the steam pot, plates, fork spoons , and even used the tissues that we using to wipe the table.. man we are eating half way and he cannot assume that we ate finish and cleared all, instead they shld wait for us to leave then dey clear all.. wad an poor service we recieved. but we didnt voice out of course, we shoot him using the feedback form.. haha still thinking whether to really go the website and complaint abt tt outlet.. maybe juz giv him a chance ba.. plus the soeul garden increase prices, the free flow drinks is no longer included in the $17.99 package, it is a separate $7+ for each person and plus wif the 10% service and 7% gst total for 3 person is $77++ really not worth it eating sushi is much more worth than this =.=lll

going to be dead~~

2008-05-10T02:53:00.002+08:00

im goin to be dead... everyday of assignments after assigments is simply too much man. you do finish one , another come, do finish that another comes again. omg i juz simply hate colour theory -.- especially the teachers/lecturers i really don't know how they pass their NIE exams before coming to teach. oh damn, how one can be a teacher WHEN INSTRUCTIONS ARE NT COMMUNICATED TO STUDENTS??? how one can be a teacher when SHE KEPT QUIET WHEN SHE GAVE WRONG INSTRUCTIONs? because of tt F***king colour theory teacher, i had to redo the whole fking super time wasting assignments redoing and redoing like no ending. no specific deadline given no instruction saying who giv the call of the instructions. oh damn this is the only module that really let me fk up man-.-

okay forgt about that -.- talking abt juz boils my blood. anyway FK TT TEACHER! OLD HAG =.= hmm im so tired man. rushing assisgnments as late as 4.30am in the morning and waking up at 7.30am to go to sch. i cant imagine i can wake up and go sch. incredible man for a person who loves sleeping more than anyting else. ah damn shit work mus be done -.- haha no matter how to complain u still ned to do it.. hope every assignments i handed in is just fine and maybe some As or something for me ? haha hope so ba. i saw quite a few cckss frens in nyp seh, saw shiling. but didnt bother abt saying hi to her lols.. she seem to be giving out a aura that ' dun recognize me please im talking to my new friends ' lols she seem abit diffrent.. abit plum i guess or maybe she has sharpen her figure or sumting haha nv specifically look at her.. i guess i juz stop here ba its like 3.09am in the morning i am here still blogging oh damn my eyes is goin to pop out of my eyes ler.. Signing off,

lazy day~

2008-05-05T00:06:00.005+08:00

i guess i just write in perfect English and not short forms and all. this will maybe or somehow or perhaps improve my English even without my English guardians like mdm prema and a best dude Zhen Xiang around me. ha ha to think a E8 person at preliminary examinations can actually score a B3 at 'O' levels. ha ha wad a big big surprise for me though. at starting of the school i guess my class is a TOTAL failure. with all the guys slacking at all i was thinking i was done for all the projects that awaits me in the future. however, i do see some hope and light that THEY are not actually that kinda of person i think to me i guess. haha.

talking about today. hmm i planned to make it as a homework day but it turn out to be quite a failure actually 1 day to rest in each week is SIMPLY too little for me. i woke up at around 2pm as usual if there isnt school today and went on watching kateikyoushi hitman reborn till to the eps 80. it rocks to the core man putting aside all the fillers and all the shit that they show before the main story. when it goes on to the main story, it is F***ing EXCITING =x how i hope 81 and the rest of the esp were dere.. and after awhile i went on cabaling with my perfect botting =D.. its actually really perfect for what ive seen for other games to be able to set the number of hit and changing course of attack and skills and all those stuff. it really make it too amazing for GMs to find out hahaz.. but of course now at 12.16am homework is not done and all the things are not settled.. haiz.. i guess i have to settle it through other days perhaps. haha.. but one thing.. i wanted to talk to her... but i just don't know how to..

sometimes i just realize that in this world, anything exist that's for sure..

Getting started

2008-05-04T04:10:00.000+08:00

hmm, i guess its quite nice to haf a blog.. sudenly tink of the subject of the ' advantages and the disadvantages of blogging ' compo at sec sch... AHHH I MISSED SEC SCH the most.. the prob of nt worrying of diffrent ppl i meet , diffrent type of style of life and a way way diffrent way of handling stuff like that.. if u tink poly is some sort of a vacation of 3 years in life.. u are totally wrong man.. aiya actually is up to diffrent ppl way of tinking of poly i guess.. for me , im 100% ZETANI goin UNIVERSITY wif a diploma in digital media design creating tings tt haf a label of ' created by Raymond Teo Liang Wee ' on it. Dont u tink is juz too cool to haff tt label on tt ? hahaz although i haf some regretful thoughts on chosing poly and this course, but tings do change abit when i realize tt its quite fun actually. learning on how to design and drawings , making urself dirty wif pencil and paint marks remind me of those arts i had when im small. but this half of year is perhaps only learning basics and tts it ba. digital = computer im goin to use computer and create wonderful tings out of it provided im learnt to do so duh!

blogging is certaining a way to like waste some of ur time if u want to.. playing wif the songs and stuff, pestering ur friends on how to do this how to do that and end up ' bluring ' each other as it usually end up not know wad each other is talking about. haha but its quite fun in a way. voicing out all ur opinions here seems to be gd. but i guess i will use it to voice out my ANGER and things tt bothering me ba.. i tink im tt kind of person tt hmm bottle everyting up and unleashing all at once at one point of a time. maybe is rather ironic ba, i appears to be a person who like smile smile all the time like very carefree like tt but actually im not.. hmmm..

The songs lyrics <3

2008-05-04T03:51:00.000+08:00

Avril Lavigne- My Happy Ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oooooh....
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin'In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

[Pre-Chorus:]
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

(Oh oh, oh oh)Oh oh, oh oh
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
(So are they)But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
(Even know you)All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (All the shit that you do)
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be,
but we lost itall of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus:]He was everything, everything that I wanted
And We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending...

[Chorus:]You were everything, everything that I wanted
And we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
[x2]Oh oh, oh oh....Oh oh, oh oh....
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh....Oh oooooh....