Finally it's over - Or not

Man, CoPit Presentation finished. Everything is done, a lot of shit is done and error has pop up and solved. Luckily.

Well, for some reasons, i feel a little guilty. I do not know why. I have been thinking after the whole presentation, that what grade should I deserved at the end of copit? Perhaps not an A. But a B perhaps? I didn't do a lot of heavy work i received. My teamates don't trust me on some work that they think I will not do as a better job than them. Man. How i wish i can be better in painting, drawing and time management.

Ah, this thing had been haunting me for days. Over GRADES again. Why am i so particular on grades? Is it because 10 years of my education, what i fight for and work hard for ends up to be only a grade? What a grade can do to me? Other than misery and depression there's nothing else.

Someone Enlighten Me Please.

Ah~ A lot of 3D 3D work to do and i haven even finished anything. Time management time management!!! I'm going to work 10x hard. I'm working hard now and i will work hard even more.

To improve my drawing skills and painting skills.

I want to be a master in drawing that i can transfer my thoughts to a drawing, instead of reference after reference.

Admiration do not work. Work hard. Even without talent i'm going to do as good as them as good as in an industry expects. I need fame, i need skills, i need more more motivation and passion.

I don't really have much stuff to like think of. Perhaps i need to be more sociable, talk to people more and make some good friends that i will have some help in the future. Stop being so passive.

Ah, i really really need a lot of push from myself, not from others. Dependant on teachers is not going to work well. Individual pushing is the best.

Soon i will have an art blog up. And at that point of time, is for me to socialise with the whole world that how i improve and how i can do things and prove that i can really draw and illustrate and do what an quality that people will say 'wa' on.

I will make sure that will happen to me. That's my aim, my dream.

To be an artist for a game and create cool stuff and receive and sufficient amount for a family to be created.

I need to do more work to put in my portfolio. It's not enough and not good enough.

Ok gtg to do some 3D. Expect me to be flying cause i will not fall easily.