I want to eat sleep play

Ah~ Life is miserable, suffering, sucks, depressing, sad, sleep-deprived, expressionless, motionless and the list of negative things go on and on.

I have been procrastinating - again. It's like a daily routine for me to procrastinate on a weekend, trying to squeeze precious time away for a good sleep and just day dream.

I need a rest perhaps? Been working hard for 5 days in a week and then on a saturday, the time just go slowly and i start my procrastination once again. Someone push me please or make the school open on weekends so i can go over to school and force myself to work instead of sleeping the whole day and wasting the whole day away. Why others are able to rest and work at the same time and yet i am there sleeping whole day.

Ah. What is done is done. Left is all the sleep-deprived days when the deadlines draws near. Man someone like enlighten me how to do this and that please. I'm kinda sick and tired already. I want to start SP4 and . Year 3 as soon as possible so that i can do my own portfolio, my own stuff my own identity for others to see.

Man. Raymond, you need to be more motivated, more hardworking!!

Lately or rather this morning, i watched a movie called Parika. A film by Satoshi Kon. Well, there's a few other films by him but as a noob as i were, i do not know of these master works.

Parika is a great anime film. It's gory and yet beautiful and smooth at the same time. The animation, oh, how long before i reach that stage.

I'm starting to socialise more and more i guess through facebook, one by one i think. Build up my contacts and then later make close friends. I was hoping to get some really close friends in poly. Cause lately i heard from one my friend saying, one good thing about poly is, there is no such thing of immaturity.

Perhaps there are more or less some dumb and stupid childish people. But perhaps most of them have a aim in their mind and thus, they have a mind unlikely to be childish. Come in to a poly to study, to have fun and to mature to a stage whereby to prepare to work and slog for the rest of life then retire.

Hah~

Week 16 and week 17 is a hell week with rendering and texturing due, Story due, drawing due, and animation due.

Help is seriously needed.

or perhaps

Time is seriously needed.

Ah.... Sadly, that's all i can say for it. Work hard ba~ the same thing i told myself when i'm secondary school. Affected by parents that all lies on me only to achieve a dream that they can never achieve- to be successful in life.

Results is not a factor for me to live, but instead I am the factor for Results to be created.

All this words are just a mask to hide away how i am so particular about results. It's just a happy mask over a sad mask. It's just that simple.

Perhaps i have a thousand masks to choose from but still my most underlying naked face is so obvious.

Again...

~back to work.