Still long way..

Been wanting to blog lately.. I don't know why am i like keep want to voice out things and i just can't find a suitable person to voice out to.. In facebook too. The status bar is always wanted to write how i think and how i feel right now.

But somehow..

It just make me think that i'm complaining things again.

Hah~ Perhaps a Blog will make me feel a little better ? Somehow i guess.

Okay, back to what i felt just a few minutes ago. I just bought some artbooks from Ms. Eva and get alot of inspiration from there as usual. It was such a inspirations till that it became sort of a motivation to make me move on to a even higher stage.

An Illustrations do not only Contain only the character itself..

It contains more than that. A feeling, an Expression that you want to express to the one looking at your illustrations. A way to let the Viewer know what you are thinking and feeling.

A background, textures, directions of the eye, colour, compositions... Blah blah

Need a lot of practice to be better. As I am from today, compared to them are such a tiny little pea or even an Ant in the world.

I realized myself liking to draw more females lately. It's such a challenge and the ending results make you want to draw more =D. I not sure why but i guess its ok. Ha~ I planned that after like SP4 i will start to work out for NS and also start a Art Blog, Throwing in all my progress to a higher stage.

What i will put in the Art Blog in a daily basis as possible.

Per Month: A theme which i work on (So i will have like 4 final painted art pieces each month)

Per Week: A Painted Artwork (if time permits more than one to cover up those that is undone)

Daily: Drawing Sketches(A must) + Painting practices of course(As Fast As possible if time permits) + Copy works of the Masters on colours schemes and trying to decifer how he/she paints and also the mood.

Perhaps After SP4 things will start in a slower pace for me to catch up a bit with all the basics and stuff and start to hardwork again. I just don't want to lose.

I kinda is like don't want to lose kind of person. From young, as long as somebody/someone challenged me that he/she get a higher grade than me or someone that i think that i should be scoring better than him/her, I will strive like 10 times than who i am to PROVE that i'm good/better. It's kinda a good motivation way i guess, a positive one. Well i don't like go be an ass that try to psyco them not to do any work or do any underhands making them sick or kill them so i can win. I win with my efforts and hardwork.

Currently, i kinda got a few of my peers that i look up to as an aim for myself to reach. Be it drawing skills, painting skills, MAYA skills or some organising skills that i need to learn. Also be more creative and also most importantly, socialize more.

Speaking of Socializing, I kinda unable to communicate well with my lecturers when he/she comment my work. My brain will go on an ' AGREE ' mode that like I will take in whatever he/she says and nod. Perhaps i think that lecturers say things that is most likely related to the industry i think. I don't hate them, but i prefer them saying the things a little more beginner friendly - Meaning saying it in a way that don't hurt that motivation and way of thinking of their work and also at the same time not always saying the positive things and then giving an fail grade.

Perhaps if I'm the lecturer, i will perhaps accept all kinds of work and firstly ask them a question:

"Did you put a lot of effort on this?"

Student if shake his/her head

"Okay, Come back and see me after you think that you have put in enough effort in this."

If every time a person put efforts in a piece of work and you keep on rejecting it, it kinda demoralize them?

They will think,"This is not correct, then what is a correct one?"

Students are not as experienced as the teachers does. They are not explored in the world before. They do not have a model answer to refer to. Or a Perfect formula to apply to. But why the teachers expect a student to do a certain standard that need a few years to achieve?

"Just do more i guess."

I guess some of my classmates who are good in everything are very smart on not stressing their peers who are aren't as good as them.

They finished the work like 4 days ago before the deadlines but they will not hand in on the day 4 days ago but instead will hand in the day before the deadline at 12am around the same timing as the class people.

It kinda let students like me not stressing myself to do as good as them or stressing myself that they are doing so good work and done 4 days ago and yet i spend so much time and my work is like 1/3 as good as them.

I don't know but i guess i work hard and do my best. My ultimate solutions in everything.

Even i fall down i just stand up, brush away all the dirt and walk with confidence again. Although there will injuries on my legs but it will heal overtime.

Lately, i personally borrowed Ms. Eva's precious Hikaru No Go DVD Special Editions~ AHHHH

Was screaming lately. I can't find any hikaru no go DVD as it is so damn long ago. It is 8 years ago.

Freaking 8 years. Time go really fast i guess.

It was such a good show, excruciating fast building up musics that triggers me saying arghhhh FASTER!!!! I WANT TO KNOW WHAT'S THE ENDINNGGGG!!!!!

Well as usual, it didn't show an ending. It was such a waste, but i will not forget. Its the best competition anime at that point of time i guess. From what i know, competition(growing up being strong then go on competition) like Eyeshield 21, Baseball, prince of tennis.... All those come along after Hikaru no Go comes in like a hit.

AND.....

the artist of hikaru no go and death note IS THE SAMEEE.

No wonder i'm attracted to death note. The controlling of the world and the mind trigger is such a lucrative business.

If you see a fan girl of some games then i'm some fan boy over some mind trigging shows.

I wonder if someone actually read my blog, perhaps leaving it hanging there to my close friends is good i think. (if they actually visit it)

Check out this website.

www.4shared.com

It provides kinda a lot of things for download and there's no virus in it. Its like a free

program sharing all sort of things in the world. from books to movies to songs to games. there is even story books in voice. How cool to LISTEN a storybook instead of READING one when you are travelling.

I got kinda alot of artworks from there. XD

I kinda need a lot things for a new year.

New....

-Shoes

-Clothes

-Pants

-Berms

-Watch

-Wallet

-A no degree plastic glasses

basically anything.

Signing off to do work.